Secrets - A Wolfstar and Jily Story

Like the Burn

I definitely am not basing Remus's emotions off of my own feelings for someone else. No...definitely not. Well even if I was, at least it's realistic. Right? Anyways enjoy the story. If you want a time check this chapter takes place September 15th...                                                       ---------------

I ran my hands through his hair. Feeling the tangles and the silky quality. He looked at me in the eyes, a light expression playing on his face. "I love you Remus Lupin."

"You do?"

Sirius looked at me and embraced me in a hug. "Of course I do. I love your scars and your hair and your eyes. Oh how wonderful your eyes are."

I looked up at him smiling. "I can't believe you actually like me."

"Oh I don't."

"What?" I felt panic arise in me. Why had he said he liked me then? I knew it couldn't be true. There was this feeling in the back of my mind. I needed to trust the doubt, it would keep me from getting hurt.

"You're imagining all of this. It's the only way you can cope." I stepped away from him shaking slightly. "See I want nothing to do with you in real life, so I get to be your boyfriend in your dreams. But that's alright. I can fill the role while you're sleeping." He embraced me again, smiling and humming lightly and I couldn't tell whether to be comforted or scared.

I jumped out of bed. I felt my breath heavy and I brought my hand to my heart trying to slow my breathing. "Remus? You alright?" Sirius was sitting on his bed looking over.

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine." It felt almost scary seeing him in my dreams and then suddenly again in real life. Sometimes it was hard to differentiate the two. "What time is it?"

"One pm." Sirius said, laughing slightly.

I jumped up. Why was I up so late? Oh...last night. I had barely slept, but no one could blame me. I was indulged in the book, and I wasn't going to go to bed with only two chapters left. It was unlike me. Plus when I go to bed, I think about things. Like Sirius or my scars or my future, and it's just easier to read.

"Relax Remus, it's a Saturday." I took a deep breath in and got up. I covered the small part of scarred torso that was visible and grabbed his large red sweater. "Just letting you know, there's going to be a party tonight in the Gryffindor Common Room."

I pulled the sweater over my head and groaned, "Seriously?" Sirius' head dropped. I felt bad for never coming, or always getting angry with the parties. Maybe this time it could be different. Maybe? "I mean it is a Saturday." He looked up at me, a smile washing over his face.

"So will the incredible Remus Lupin make an appearance?"

"He might. He'll have to look at his schedule." Sirius giggled and rolled his eyes at me.

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The deafening music could be heard all the way in my dorm room. I checked my appearance once more in the mirror. It was nothing special. Just a nice sweater.

I walked down the wooden steps to where the music was blaring. Sirius was already slightly tipsy (or at least from what I could tell) but James didn't seem to have touched a drop yet, surprisingly. "Remus!" Lily stumbled by my side smiling.

She looked very put together for a party. Her eyeliner replicated Marlene's usual look and she was in a flowy lavender dress that complimented her hair nicely. Her hair bounced up and down as she danced to the music. She looked so unlike she usually did. Maybe it was because she looked so happy and free. I was glad she was having fun.