We don't get to decide everything

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by Paemix

by Paemix

You hear footsteps but don't react "Y/n.. you'll never be alone" Floch sits down next to you "I'll be with you from dusk till dawn I'll be there for you and hold you when things go wrong I'll be with you all the time" Hange sit left to you "So will I" she says you now hear Jean and the last survivors "so will I" "and I" surprisingly you now hear Mikasa "Me too" and Eren "Same here" he scrateches his hair in awkwardness.

"Y/n" Hange now gets serious "Y/N SMITH how dare you" you flinch "how dare I what hehe?" you cringe. "How dare you not tell me?! I thought you were my friend? my sister? Sis from another miss? sisters and friends tell each other suff like that how dare you?!" Eren, Mikasa and Sasha at the same time "We knew it" Hange looks at you in shock "They knew?!" Jean looks at Hange now at you "Y/n? What's going on? is there something you wanna tell us?" Floch stops the others ,,Guys cut her some slack please" "It's alright Floch you have the honoour of telling everyone I can't do this right now I need to think."

"Fine" he says "She's pregnant." You hear no reactions so you you turn around to see everyone half dead of shock. you try to smile but you couldn't "I hope levi made the right desicion I really wanted to raise his child with- nevermind actually, is everyone that survived fine except for small injouries?" You look at everyone they seemed to be somewhat alright

"Y/n" you turn around to see that Levi had made his desicion "I- he- but-" you break down "I really thought he was gonna I really had hope" "hahaha I really thought Levi would" You cover half of you face with you right hand "Y/n whatever you do stay calm " Floch whispers "what do you mean I am calm" you start to panic and can't define what you're feeling "I- I'm super calm I'm probably just dreaming or going crazy right?" they all look at the floor "I'm just gonna-" but nothing more came out you realise how much you could have put them in danger by waisting time and how you worried them and remain silent.

When you return to the top of the wall to recover the remaining soldiers. Levi orders Mikasa and Eren to explain everything that happened while he was out and you just sit on the wall looking at the sky; looking at the sky how you used to do it with your brother but you didn't ever wanna do it with him again you didn't hate him, you just felt like you couldn't face him ever again.

Ever since that day you haven't talked to anyone, you felt a huge burden which you couldn't face alone. At first you didn't wanna come you thought 'medal what for? I've failed my friends, my family my husband and myself and soldiers died what is the medal for' But due respect and since you had to be there you choose to go with Floch "She still hasn't said anything?" Jean asks "Floch looks down and then at Armin with fierce and anger "

she barely got out of her room at least she ate" "She feels like she's failed everyone and all of that because this brat survived everyone knows Erwin should've, but Levi and the others let their feeling-"enough" you whisper "wha-" "I SAID ENOUGH" "NEITHER ME NOR YOU GET TO DECIDE WHO LIVES AND WHO DIES it's just how it is we have to make decision and hope we won't regret them that's what someone told me I once looked up to but even great heroes fall and you won't be able to look up to where they once were they fall and some never get up ever again or you won't be able to look at them the same way"

You see Levi leaving out of the corner of your eye he probably knew I was talking about him and Erwin "Captain" Armin looks at you "I'm sorry I truly am but I appreciate you just talking to defend me" "Oh Armin" you hug him "since when Captain I told you it's Y/n" Armin embraces your hug "Remember you promised we'll take it to the ocean toghether" you hold both his hands "I'll be leaving now, Floch let's go" as you two leave he asks "Y/n are you alright?" "I am, I mean I have a friend in shining armor to defend me" you say sarcasticly "very funny y/n" he whispers.