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Tobias Eaton

I was trapped in a box with its walls closing in on me and felt my breathing fasten as I was getting suffocated and when I thought the box couldn't close in more I felt the scenery change.

I could see my dead mother, Tris, Uriah, Zeke, and Hana looking at me with utter hatred in their eyes which made me want to cower and engulf myself in a crouching position but I stood still staring at them.

I heard the evil laugh of my monster of a father behind me which made me turn around to be met with my father's figure which was way bigger now, him towering over me, his eyes looking like black pits.

Then he began speaking actually yelling he said, "You're a burden to everyone, they all hate you, you're unworthy of any love", he said while pointing to all of the people behind me, "no...no they don't!", I said while I was shaking and my face wet with tears "yes they do they're saying it by themselves", It was then I noticed they all started chanting

You are a Burden!

You are unworthy of love!

We hate you!

They kept repeating this and started walking towards me, I backed away shaking and crying and I kept saying no and stop but suddenly I fell off a cliff which I didn't even know was there and I just kept falling while I screamed...

"Tobias! Tobias! Wake up"

I suddenly shot up and noticed I was in my bedroom and looked to the side where I saw Tris, the pain-stricken look in her eyes made me break down into tears and she suddenly engulfed me in a hug and started whispering soothing things like "It's okay" and "you're okay", in my ear and rubbed my back comforting me till I calmed down.

"I-I'm so...so sorry"

"You have nothing to be sorry about"

"But..but I...I d-do"

"What do you mean?"

"I'm sorry for being a burden on you, for being hard to deal with, for being this broken mess who is depressed and has nightmares, so I won't be surprised if you want to leave me..."

"Tobias Stop! First of all, you're not a burden and I love being with you and you're certainly not hard to deal with it, Second of all so what if you're depressed? I'm not that hard to get rid of so I'll be right here to help you out of it and I'll always support you because I love you.", she kissed me and pulled me into another embrace, putting her forehead on mine after she cut me off.

It was hard to believe because no one has truly loved me before, besides my mom who isn't here anymore because Marcus beat her to death when I was 9, After that, I became his punching bag.

He verbally and physically abused me every day causing me to become depressed and I kept this a secret from everyone until I met Tris and her brothers Zeke and Uriah who decided to sit with me at lunch one day and we all became great friends and I fell in love with Tris almost immediately.

They found out about my ordeal when I showed up at their house in the middle of the night after a bad beating that left me with 4 broken ribs, a broken wrist, and my back with many deep cuts that left permanent scars which I later found out that if I hadn't been hospitalized I would've died of blood loss.

They made me tell them about Marcus because the doctors deduced after the examination that my injuries were from abuse so after revealing everything they made me press charges on him. Hana's friend Jack Kang was my lawyer and he won the case which got Marcus life imprisonment with no bail because we pressed charges for my mom's murder too.

I am 18 years old so they didn't put me in the foster system so I am currently staying with the Pedrads until I graduate and go to college. It sounds like the perfect happy ending living with your girlfriend and best friends but it isn't, really, because my past keeps haunting me and which has given me PTSD and Depression as said by the psychologist they made me see while I was hospitalized.

That's why I suffer from nightmares and panic attacks when anybody raises a hand on me even if it's just for a joke. My nightmares often include my father and the people I love telling me they hate me which comes from the fact that I have deemed myself unloveable and feel like The Pedrads will leave me when they realize I'm just a burden or a failure.

When Tris told me she loved me I felt a warmness arise in me that I hadn't felt in a long time, It was like she was the fire that eradicated the darkness within me and the voices of self-doubt got taken over by her voice. She made me want to try to get better and move on.

"I love you too, so much", I told her and kissed her again, this time lingering for a little bit. I knew that my recovery wasn't going to be easy and there would be times that I'll slip into the darkness again but I do know that she'll be right here to love me and to support me. 

A/N

I certainly hope you enjoyed reading this one-shot! I have commitment issues with writing whole books so I decided to give one shots a try.

Comment down below if you think I should continue doing one shots.

Also I'll be updating my other story 'Mending our Broken Souls' soon too.

I also want to thank Obviously_Ved for editing this.

Regards,

Tanusha

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