date: 3/20/21
time: 4;52am
i am gonna cry right now because i feel like it. my day was fine, it was good- until reality decided to fucking punch me in the stomach.
i was having a great day, i played minecraft, but the later it got, the more i started stressing.
i havent done work, i have a test i havent even done that was for yesterday. then i feel like im disappointing everyone.
also feel like some of my friends are too busy or i dont have much in common with them to interact with them more
i miss my sister, she lives in a diff city with her husband. she told me today that she requested work off on my birthday so that she wont work on it.
but then i feel like she doesnt like me since i sometimes ignore her when i am busy.
i miss her, sometimes i wish she didnt move out.
that reminds me of a diff thing. my parents. sorta racist, and i think homophobic. they are progressive but not to the point of gen z, like they get in with the new but wouldnt be comfy with it and would be strict like they already are
i make no sense
okie im done writing here because i feel tired but also i really wanna keep making chapters and just hide inside a sleeping bag with my stuff toys and stuff.
:/)
