hey, if youre still reading this, why?
i know it seems like i am, but i will never commit suicide
ive promised people that i wouldnt
like
my brother- he told me he would be in depression and would blame myself if i ever did disappear
my mom- in which she and i were at a gas station on a trip. she found out that day that a couple days ago, i had tied the vacuum rope around my neck and tried choking myself.
before leaving the gas station and going back into our car, she held out her pinky and made me promise to never kill myself and if i did, she and the rest of my family would be depressed
so i did, i pinky promised her i wouldnt
my soulmate- this may come off as a weird thing but every night, i also do this thing. i close my eyes and think-
hey love,
are you doing ok? remember that i will always love you and i miss you so much. i cant wait to meet you... i miss you every day and night, and i havent even met you yet. know that i love you and when you feel as if no one is with you, know that im here
it's weird because i promise my soulmate that i will never leave them alone in this world and that i love them, even if i dont know them yet
lastly, id like to end of this chapter on a good note
if you (whoever you are if someone is reading this) need a vent or anyone to listen or youre just bored, just dm me :)
i love you <3
