date: 4/5/21
time: 11:43pm
i dunno if you can read the bottom text or if it's the same color as the page, therefore making it unvisible...
im honestly tired- physically, mentally, and emotionally. i feel like death is coming for me and i am scared. even if it isnt waiting for me, i feel like i should just end it already but i know there are people who love me. im tired of my parents fighting and school drowning me in assignments, im tired of my mind and myself- feeling worthless and useless everyday. the only thing keeping me alive is the love of some of my friends and family, but then again sometimes i feel like im drifting farther away from them. i feel as if i let everyone down everyday because of every little thing to do. i just want to be free from everything. i want to experience freedom in ways that will fill me up with serotonin and euphoria, make me feel like ive got no problems, no care in the world. i want to experience love, get head kisses and hugs, and just cuddle every minute because i need love from the person i wanna grow old with. i just want happiness, and i am getting it, just the kind that fills you up temporarily until you feel pain again.
