Maybe I Like You [bxb]

Chapter 5: World No. 1 Awkward-Embarrassing-Cringe-Worthy Moments

I duck into an empty classroom and watch Julian and Lia pass by carelessly laughing over something.

Lucky bastard..

He must be completely fine, considering he kisses boys all the time. Only a first-timer like me freaks out over things like this. I have been avoiding Julian all day and ever since that unfortunate thing happened in front of his building. 

That evening after I had pressed my lips to his, we both froze in shock.

"Are you going to kiss me?" he had asked against my lips when I made no further movement. His voice brought back my senses and I let go of him. Since I had been holding him, he fell to the ground but I was having somewhat of a panic attack, so I just ran away. I know, World No. 1 Awkward-Embarrassing-Cringe-Worthy moments.

I feel stupid, since I am a pro at kissing girls, hooking up with them and acting totally chill the next day. This is just not what I do, wondering how the other person would react.

"Dude, this is not our class." Alex grabs my collar and drags me to my classes. I try to free myself but he just bonked my head with his bag.

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"Dylan can I talk to you?" Julian asks from beside me at lunch.

"No, I am busy," I look the other way chewing my sandwich. I sense him about to talk to me further so I plug in my earphones. I know, horrifyingly rude but at this point I am desperate and very heavily embarrassed. I think Julian said something like, "Stupid good-looking bird poop."

When lunch ended, I pick my bag and literally cling to Ian so that I'm not alone. He tries to push me away, but I just stuck close to him. 

For the rest of the day I was successful in avoiding Julian, and now I was going for my football practice after taking a piss. My bathroom needs were not important to Max, who had given me a weird look when I asked him to wait for me.

"Do you also want me to whistle softly, my love?" he had asked sarcastically before abandoning me, but I was not that freaked out about being alone now, because school was over. Boy was I wrong..

"Aha! Caughtcha!" I was roughly pushed against the lockers that rattle loudly under my weight.

"What the fuck Julian?" I frown shaking my shoulder to relieve the pain.

"Don't you, what the fuck me," he glares resting his hands on his hips. I curse my stupid brain for not seeing this coming.

"Look before you say anything, I am terribly sorry for my behavior. I don't know why I did that last night. And I would be fucking grateful if we could just pretend it never happened."

"Whatever, but first things first," he says angrily. I watch as he puts a hand on my chest and clutches my tshirt pulling me into him.

"What are you-"

He silences me by smashing his lips to me. For a moment I just close my eyes, and sink into the feeling of his soft lips firmly moving against me. I felt every fucking cell of my body light up in energy.

"Now that's a real kiss," he announces stepping away from me. I blink twice before I zone back into the surroundings. 

"I didn't want your first kiss with a boy to be unfinished," he shrugs. "And Dylan if want to keep pretending, fine by me. I will act like nothing happened. Cool?"

I manage to nod, still thinking about his soft mouth. Julian goes away and I sink onto the floor. Weirdly I felt like crying. Thankfully the school was empty and nobody witnessed the kiss. I rub my face trying to figure out what the fuck do I want?

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"Dylan?"

"Are you alone?" I ask holding the doorframe in a tight grip, trying not to kill the boy in front of me. Julian nods swallowing whatever he was eating.

"Perfect," I mutter stepping in a shutting the door behind me.

"Are you oka-"

I don't let him finish before I hold his face and crash our mouths together. Julian's eyes widen as his mouth drops open in shock. I take the opportunity to deepen the kiss plunging my tongue into his mouth. He tastes like bread and jam and I need more of it. I was so occupied in kissing him, I never noticed Julian was surprisingly kissing me back. His feeble hits to my chest remind me I have to let him breathe. I ease my tongue out and kiss along his neck, leading us to the couch.

I sit down pulling him in my lap, reattaching our mouths the second he stops breathing heavily.

"Slow down," he says in between kisses.

"No," I mutter, running my hands over his back wanting to mold his body into me.

"Dylan," he frowns. I make an unhappy sound and give him space.

"What is this? Did you finally realize you like me?"

"No I don't like you. I just like kissing you," I run my thumb along his swollen lips.

"That's basically-"

"Julian," I interrupt. "Shut up, and lemme kiss you."

"Okay." I push him down on the couch, lying on top of him, kissing his mouth open. After Julian kissed me in school, I could not get a single thing right. Coach yelled at me, Max yelled at me, hell even my father, who had the patience of a lamb yelled at me for zoning out. By the evening I had enough of everything. It was too much for me to handle and I just wanted to get my hands on Julian.

So I had put on a the hood of my sweatshirt and sneaked to the door of his apartment like a thief. I didn't have the slightest idea what I'll do or say on seeing him, but as soon I saw his face I knew.

"Looks like you have a little something for me," I smirk against his lips, as I feel a strong poke on my stomach.

"I'm only human you dog," he snaps grabbing my collar and attaching our mouths. I feel pleased at his impatience.

"I don't know what you feel, or what we're doing," Julian says against my lips. "But we should definitely keep doing this."

"Now you are talking," I flip us over so he's on top of me. His hair brush against my face as he sucks my lower lip. 

"When will your parents be home?" I ask kissing his throat.

"Don't worry, they're never home," he breathes out clutching my hair. His hands rest on my thighs, and slowly trail higher.

"Okay, we should stop," I sit up breaking the kiss. Julian freezes in caution.

"I thought you wanted to.." he frowns getting off me.

"I can't," I swallow. "That's too much. Just kissing."

Julian laughs, "Dylan-"

"I have to go. Excuse me," I get up and rush outside not waiting for anything. I hear Julian calling after me, but I run home like a bloody coward.

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