Irreplaceable You

62: The Last Ten Seconds

Ella

I watch Jhoana pour herself another drink. The gold liquid filled the glass pretty quickly.

"Are you sure you're not gonna drink?" Jhoana

"Yes I am, need to stay sober because of your sorry drunkass." Ella

"You're no fun Ate Ells! Join me please." Jhoana

"You should've let me invited the other girls para naman may kajoin ka uminom." Ella

"Na-uh, they're gonna see my pointless dramatic teleserye life. Grabe ano? What did I do in my past life to deserve this? All I wanted was to be loved and be loved in return. And what do I get? Two people competing or maybe killing only god knows the truth over a person like me. And me as a dumbass person always choosing the wrong decision and regret it later." Jhoana

"I should bring you home na. Andami mo nang naiinom." Ella

"Can I sleep here in your house? I'll promise I'll be good. I won't be a pain in the ass." Jhoana

"Teh lasing ka na! Nasa bar tayo ano ka ba." Ella

"Ay weh? Naiba na? Shet sorry. Let me have one last glass then we'll go home." Jhoana

"No Jho, tama na, kanina pa yang last mo. I'll bring you home." Ella

"Hindi ko ba deserve ate sumaya? Bawal ba akong maging masaya?" Jhoana

"Jhoooo, all you ever did was you followed your heart. Thinking na this decision would be the right thing to do. I can't blame you kasi we all thought na patay na si Bea. Five years you waited for her, every single day. Even when Nico's in there. I get it, you feel betrayed that's why you chose Nico again. But think about it okay? Are you happy with him? If I were the one to answer that, I've never seen you smile like that in five years whenever you're with Bea." Ella

Jhoana started crying. I can't blame her, it's hard for us too.

All we ever wanted for her is to be happy, and if it is with Nico so be it. That's her happiness, hindi namin pwedeng bawiin yon. But the things is I can see how she's happy and peaceful whenever she's with Bea.

Hindi naman ako nahirapan isakay siya sa sasakyan. She sobered up after crying. She asked me if I can bring her home. And I obliged di ko naman papabayaan tong babae na to.

After a thirty minutes drive, I helped her going to her unit.

Hindi naman na ako pumasok pa and let her be on her own. Pagod na din ako at gusto ko na ding matulog.

As I'm walking out of her condo unit I saw a familiar person.

"What are you doing here?" Ella

"I just wanted to check up on her kung nakauwi ba siya ng maayos." Bea

"She's a mess Bea." Ella

"I know Ate Ells. But I can't do anything about it, hindi ko pwedeng icomfort siya, because I might lose myself just being with her again." Bea

"Eh? Bakit ka nandito?" Ella

"Ate Ells I love Jhoana and you know that. But I want her to love herself first and know what does she really wants. Ayaw kong dumadagdag pa ako sa isipin niya dahil hindi niya alam kung sinong pipiliin niya. Gusto kong buo at handa na ulit siya pag mamahalin niya ako ulit. And gusto ko peaceful na wala nang babagabag sa isip niya kung tama ba o mali ang ginawa niya. Gusto ko ako yung tama niyang desisyon." Bea

"Hay nako loverboy! You want to go inside?" Ella

"Hindi na Ate. Gusto ko lang malaman na okay siyang nakauwi." Bea