AN: just in the first paragraph of this chapter I've noticed a lot of times where 'they' in relation to Neek's pronouns and they as in multiple people will get confusing, so I tried something else in how to write Neeks but it's probably temporary depending on you all let me know what you think. Since wattpad wont let me use strikethrough i just put the html marks around he and him in relation to neeks
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Neeks sat across from Jason in silence at the table, the other members of the Argo II doing...something. Jason had assured <s>him</s> that they weren't listening in, that they could talk in peace, and <s>he</s> accepted this. Maybe <s>he</s> did trust Jason, or as much as <s>he</s> could trust nowadays.
But they weren't doing much talking. They just sat in each other's presence, sat and stared at each other. Finally, Jason broke the tension.
"The first time, what did Cupid make you admit?"
Neeks played with <s>his</s> dagger, messing with the hilt and wondering how much more it'd go through before it was sheathed for good. "That I love Percy."
"Oh...so you've...you've been dealing with that for awhile."
"Yeah."
"And...it's not just a crush?"
Neeks shook <s>his</s> head. "No. I wish. But I've loved him for lifetimes. I...I was cursed to love him."
"What do you mean?"
"During my first life...I..." Neeks looked away. "This diety, I'm not sure which one it was, he wanted me. Like, you know. I kept denying him. And the last time I denied him, he wanted me to stay with him forever. So he...he cursed me. Cursed me to always fall for Percy's soul as Percy's soul always falls for Annabeth's. It was the only reason lowly mortals like us were able to be reborn."
"So, Percy always falling for Annabeth...that's a curse? That's not even just them loving each other?" Jason asked. "Is that...why hasn't anyone done anything? Have they even really noticed?"
"Percy and Annabeth? Probably not," Neeks admitted. "But my father saw the curse on my soul when I was born. He said he couldn't do anything about it, but I don't know."
"Have you looked in to breaking it?"
"I've been a little preoccupied," Neeks muttered.
"Right." Jason cleared his throat. "So, um...going back to your first life, before the curse...did you...feel like you weren't one gender...back then?" Jason asked.
"I don't know if I can answer that."
"What do you mean? Do you not remember? If you don't have all your memories, it's-"
"It's not that," Neeks interrupted. "No memories are hidden from me. It's..." <s>He</s> sighed. "I don't know. I was never really in control enough to even think about it. Like, yeah, I was glad I was a woman because I doubted Erro was gay, but that was the only reason. Only when I was Eun did I ever feel like I was a certain gender."
"And...you were a guy?"
Neeks nodded.
"So, after the war, what are you going to?"
Neeks frowned. "What do you mean?"
"Cupid mentioned...he said something about you wanting to jump into Chaos," Jason remembered. "Do you...is that...?"
"What I've been planning?" Neeks sat in silence for a minute before hesitantly nodding. "Don't tell anyone."
"Neeks..."
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