Keep It Lowkey | Lilhuddy

Chapter Twenty Nine

"I don't know.. Maybe?"
Chase's voice got a little quieter than before. Suddenly, it looks like something has been bothering him. I stretched my hand out and put it on his hand.
"tell me"
I said with a smile. He just shrugged and looked down.
"chase?"
I was starting to get worried

"you know.. People do really get to me sometimes. I know it's stupid but when you're told everyday that you're worthless and skinny noodle and all this shit.. You kinda start to believe it"
I sighed.

"it's not stupid. I understand. They are fucked up. You're the most amazing and genuine person I know chase. Don't ever forget that. And about the whole bodyshaming shit. I think you're beautiful just the way you are. You don't need to be big or all muscles. It's just stupid. You're the hottest man I know. And if you need a coping mechanism, when it happens with me and my friends we kinda just make jokes out of it. It's a lot lighter this way. But you can also log out of social media for a couple days. Or you can put all the negative energy into work. It helps a lot."

He gave me a little smile making me squeeze his hand in assurance.
" thanks Anna. You're amazing"
I laughed trying to lighten him up a little bit.
"of course I'm. Told you you've got the hottest most amazing girl simping for you"
He laughed as well.
"well you've got the hottest man you know simping for you as well so we kinda even"

After we finished eating, chase insisted to pay the whole bill. We then walked hand in hand to the parking lot.

"why don't you just ride with me? You can make Katelyn pick your car up"
I agreed and texted her.

Before pressing 'send', she called me. Chase and I laughed as we climbed inside his car.

"hey girlie, can you pick my car up? Imma send you the location"
I said as chase started the car.
"yeah sure. Where do you want it?"
"just home"

"okay bet. I was calling to just see if you checked tiktokroom?"
I frowned.
"what now?"
"you're in a their recent like two posts. And it's bad"

Oh shit.
"okay imma call you back"
I said and ended the call.

I went straight to tiktokroom.
"is everything okay?"
Chase asked.

"fuck"
I said once I saw the video.
"what happened"
Chase asked again confused. I handed him the phone and rubbed my forehead trying to calm down.
"oh shit"

It was a video of us on the yacht. It looked like it was taken from another boat or something. We were dancing and we kissed. There was thankfully no sound.

"fuck fuck fuck fuck. How did this come out? I thought you said you were sure of what we're doing?"
He asked me, panicking. It was obvious he was getting frustrated. But I'd be damned of I let him blame this on me.
"how the fuck was I supposed to know? I own the yacht but I don't own the fucking ocean, chase!"

"perfect! What are we supposed to do now?"
His tone was getting angrier and it was pissing me off. He's acting like this is my fault.
" can you stop acting like I fucking got any hand in this?"

"you don't but you are the one who wanted this public from the start! Can't you fucking see it Anna? This has been the happiest month of my life I don't wanna ruin that!"

Oh so it's my fault I wanted to show him off at the start? Or is he trying to say that I'm the one who took this out?

" are you saying I did this?"
I asked gritting on my teeth. He glanced at me and then his eyes went back to the road.
" No. I'm saying you don't care about keeping it a secret"

"I fucking don't. You are so fucking convinced that getting anything out is gonna ruin us and it's not true! You're just too hung up on what happened with charli, chase. You don't wanna make this public because it didn't work with her. You don't wanna go to certain places because you went there with her. You don't fucking want to talk about anything related to her just because you can't let go! How much more are gonna let her ruin this!"
At this point I just didn't care. I was yelling and he was yelling back. I was so fucking mad that he wouldn't even look at me. Even though he was driving and he can't stop driving because we might get seen again.

He scoffed.
" charli does not have anything to do with this! Are you crazy or something? Just because you compare everything with your past relationship doesn't mean I do it too. It's not my fault you're fucking insecure!"

This bitch

"I'm insecure?" I laughed with disgust. "yeah right because I'm the one who's trying his fucking hardest to keep everything Lowkey just because I don't want a replay from July right? No babe, I'm clean and honest with every fucking thing I do"

"wow.. So what if I don't want a replay from July. So what if I don't wanna be bullied by YOUR friends? Have you ever thought about how much their so called jokes affect me? Have you ever thought about what they did that day in the hospital? Of course you don't because all you care about is yourself!"

"you know what? Fuck this. Stop the car"
At this point, I just didn't know what to do anymore. I wanted to cry so bad but I'm never letting him see my tears.
"No"

Oh fuck you chase mother fucking Hudson.

"chase stop the fucking car!"
I wasn't yelling but I know my tone wasn't the nicest. But it's not like he deserves being nice to.
"where the fuck am I supposed to stop it? We're in the middle of a high way!"

Fucking great. Now I will have to wait for thirty more fucking minutes till we arrive to the hype house.

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This is a draft cus I'm sad

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I slammed the car door shut and went inside the house. Leaving chase outside. In the master living room there was a lot of people. Apparently Bryce and Thomas wanted to collab for YouTube but they ended up inviting all of sway. Sabrina and Cynthia invited the rest of nach as well.

Guess who invited his girlfriend AND her sister? Yep, little innocent nice Noah.

There was a total of like sixty people because Tyler also came with all the compound members. That's the thing about tiktokers. You invite someone and this someone invites someone and you end up having sixty people in your house. Only one wasn't here was Josh and nessa. Kinda sad but it's a bonus for me not having to be in the same place as him.

But I was not in the mood to communicate with people at all. Chase and tiktokroom ruined my fucking mood and I couldn't be more thankful. Note the sarcasm.

After saying hi to people and talking to people. I was in a real need of alcohol. Maybe some weed. Also a thing about tiktokers is that they are a bunch of kids having thousands, even millions of dollars. Of course, they're gonna try everything they can find. Including alcohol and drugs.

Amelie was hanging out with avani, Blake and ant. Rafy was with Bryce and Thomas helping with the whole filming thing. So i was by myself.

I went to the kitchen to look for some white claws or maybe some tequila. Ryland, nick, Madison and Vinnie were there.

"hey babe"
Madison said giving me a hug and I returned it.
"hey"
She's really sweet.

"you okay there?"
Vinnie asked with a raised eyebrow. I just shrugged.
"it's the lilhuddy acting like a bitch virus getting to me again"
I was not trying to be even funny but they still laughed hard..

"do you guys have any weed? And wine?"
I asked Vinnie since he lives here now.
"we have both"
"thank God"