Keep It Lowkey | Lilhuddy

Chapter Sixty Two

"chase.. It's okay. I know she sees me as the sway boys friend and she has every right to not like me. It's just.. I wish she would give me a chance to prove myself. I have never ever intended to hurt you in any way"
I told chase honestly. I didn't know what else to do. I just wanted his mom to not hate me.

Usually, I wouldn't really give a flying fuck who likes me and who doesn't. But this is different. This is chase's mom. Chase is everything to me.

"I know.. I'll talk to her I promise. She doesn't understand that you're nothing like your friends"
Chase's voice came to my ears through the ear pod as I was driving to the airport.

I rolled my eyes. My friends aren't bad. Maybe they are a little bit mean. But when you get to know them, they're the most amazing and important people in my life.

"so.. I left Ollie for Diana this morning. But she has to go grocery shopping. Do you mind taking him for the day? I'm really busy today"
I changed the topic.
"yeah sure. I'm not really that busy. I'll be done in the studio in a couple hours and I'll get to your house and take him"

I finally spotted bryce's car and parked next to it.

"thanks. I have to go. I arrived the airport"

"okay. I lo-.. Bye"

Fuck. Thank god he didn't say it or that would have been awkward as fuck. The line then went dead.

I slipped out of my car. And went to bryce's. He was talking on the phone so I didn't get inside it.

Does chase really still love me? After everything? Sometimes, it feels so good but also so bad to be in love with him. I just feel like I need some space. Like why does everyone think they can just put an openion on what's going on with us? Even our families and friends. For God's sake, even I don't know what's going on with Chase and I right now.

I want us to be dating. But I also can't take being in a relationship with him again after that video. I know it's an old clip. I know we weren't dating at the time. But just the thought that he liked charli in November, five months after they broke up, makes me nervous.

What if at some point he realized charli is better? What if charli never gets over him? What if they still like each other and I'm the one holding them back? What if his family is trying to get him and charli to date again? What if they succeeded?

I can't handle another heartbreak. I have been through enough.

That's why I ended things with Chase and we kept it just as close friends. I'm scared. I'm scared to fully be into it again and just get my heart broken.

Maybe I just need to get more space. Maybe I should tell him that we should stop talking at all.

But I can't do that. Not after yesterday.

"yo!"
I looked next to me and Bryce with there with a suspecious look on his face.
"how did you get out of the car so quietly?"
I asked laughing my thoughts away.
"I didn't. You're just way too into your head. What's going on?"
He asked, opening an ani can and handing it to me before he got his own.
"nothing really.. You know. A little off today"

"yeah being famous and rich as shit can make you a little off sometimes"
He mocked my voice at the last part making me laugh.
"shut up. It's really nothing"
Bryce raised his eye brow at me making me roll my eyes.

"okay fine. It's chase's family. They hate me so much and they adore charli and it fucking sucks because I can't even get mad at Chase. It's not his fault. Plus we're not even dating"

Bryce laughed. This bitch laughed at me feeling sad as shit. I hate my friends.

"it's kinda cute how whenever you and chase sort things out, more trouble get in the way."
I scrunched my nose
"how is that cute?"