Notes from the Moon (Solar Series #1)

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Nangangatog ang paa ko. Halos hindi na ako makatayo ng maayos at lalo kong sinandal ang sarili ko sa lalaking nakayakap sa akin ngayon. 

I didn't want to pull away from him. I'm scared that if I do, I'd be able to see the sorrow in his eyes. The reason behind my guilt. And that every memory I've been trying to forget will come rushing back to me. 

I heard him grunt. Hindi ko namalayang napisil ko na pala ang kaniyang braso sa kung ano-ano ang naiisip ko. 

He slowly pulled away from me and right then and there, I saw his angelic face again. Those beautiful hazel brown eyes glistened from the light on the lamp post beside us. Nothing much has changed with how he looked. Just the expression on his face. It was cold. He looked at me like he was piercing right through my soul. 

Napalunok ako dahil sa tagal ng titig niya sa akin. I'm the first one who broke off the eye contact. Parang gusto kong uminom bigla ng malamig na tubig. Hindi ko kaya yung katahimikan na bumabalot sa pagitan namin. 

"Uhm mhm", I fake coughed. "T-thank y-you...f-for s-saving me", pautal-utal kong sabi. Heck, I can't even look at him straight. Iba padin ang epekto niya sa akin. 

Hindi niya ako sinagot at mas lalo lang niya akong tinitigan. Awkward silence suddenly filled us. Sa sobrang tahimik namin, rinig ko yung tibok ng puso kong parang gustong kumawala ngayon. 

Nagulat ako nang hubarin niya ang kaniyang coat at pinatong niya ito sa mga balikat ko. What the fuck. That was literally what I was thinking a while ago. Parang nag slow mo ang paligid nang ginawa niya yun sa akin. His chest went near my face and I could smell his Jo Malone perfume. 

He stepped backwards and looked at me again. Seriously, hindi ka ba nagsasawang titigan ako?

"Hindi", sagot niya na ikinagulat ko. Natampal ko pa ang aking bibig sa harapan niya. Ano bang nangyayari at nasasabi ko nalang ng malakas ang nilalaman ng isip ko? I cursed myself in my head repeatedly and avoided his gaze. 

"I need to go", he said cutting the silence between us. He turned away from me and started walking when I had this sudden urge to call him back. 

"Wait!", I shouted causing for him to stop in his tracks. He turned to face me. I slowly went near him taking deep breaths. This'll be my first time chasing a guy let alone my ex who I broke up with. The first time I ever had the courage to do this. 

"Coffee? My t-treat", I shyly said while biting my lower lip. Lord omg, take me now! Ewan ko ba kung bakit ko siya biglang inaya. Alam ko namang hindi siya sasama eh. He said he needed to go.

"Ah, sorry. It's okay if you don't want", I said looking down feeling embarrassed. 

"Let's go". He nodded and in that moment, my eyes widened with joy. I tried to hide my excitement and nervousness.