I couldn't believe I'm going to Pakistan. my life was ruined there. what do I do? I need to get out of this. but I can't let hussain down...neither can I let shehry down. I heard that a relationship of bhabi-devar is the closest..closer than brother sister.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when my phone rang. I saw shehrys name flashing on the screen.
ya Allah...madat karna.
"hey shehry."
"hello bhabi!"
"Kaisa hai mera pyara devar?"
"Thk bhabi. aap Kaise ho?"
"I'm fine.."
"Acha bhabi I wanted to apologize...I know what happened in Pakistan which made you swear to never go there again..but bhabi..my mom wants me to get married there..because our whole family is there.its totally ok if you don't come."
"oy tu mujhe kya samajta hai? sun..mujhe kabhi na kabhi to Pakistan jana nai na? I have to face it sometime..if not now then I will at some point in my life..and yes I have sworn to never go there again..but I'll change anything for my devar..not even iqra..listen..I love you like a little brother."
•hussain POV•
I felt really bad for forcing Ashi to go to Pakistan..but I had no choice..mom wanted to see her and shehry would kill me if his bhabi didn't come to the wedding, so I'm the middle of the sandwich.
I walked into the room to talk to Ashi. when I walked in I saw her sitting in front of the semi-packed suitcase talking on the phone. I just stood against the door frame giving her and whoever a bit of privacy.
"oy tu mujhe kya samajta hai? sun..mujhe kabhi na kabhi to Pakistan jana nai na? I have to face it sometime..if not now then I will at some point in my life..and yes I have sworn to never go there again..but I'll change anything for my devar..not even iqra..listen..I love you like a little brother. I can never be happy when your sad.."
I felt a tear prick my eyes..was I about to cry?
way to be a man hussain..
stop talking to me stupid brain.
I can't. I'm you.
I was snapped out of my thought when Ashi was laughing.
she looked so happy.
"I love you too devar g. ok bye.." and she turned to me.
"oh heyy.." she looked so happy.
"why so happy.."
"shehry..I can't say no to him. it'll break my heart..I'm ready to face my fear.."
"glad to hear..do you need help parking?"
"yes please?"
~.~
after we finished packing, I told Ashi to get changed so that we could go to the dinner. aena had offered to watch the kids tonight. she said she'll meet us at Ashi's parents house later tonight.
we were driving to the restaurant and I saw Ashi looking out the window. "what's wrong love?"
"I'm going to break down." she whispered while letting her tears fall.
God damnit! I don't wanna force her! but how will I answer everyone when they ask why my wife hasn't come. more than half my family hasn't met her yet and their eager to meet her.
I honesty don't know what to do. please Allah help me.
•Ashi POV•
I don't know what I was thinking. I'm showing people in brave and I'm ready to face my biggest fear but on the other side I'm scared I'll break down. I don't know what I'm doing.
I was looking out the window near shedding.
"what's wrong love?" I heard hussan ask.
"I'm going to break down." I said still looking out the window, letting my tears finally fall.
I saw hussains jaw stiffen and he gripped on the starring wheel..to the point where his knuckles were white.
I opened my mouth..about to say something but ended up closing it. we drove the rest of the way in complete silence.
~after dinner~
we talked a little bit at dinner...not much. I felt hussain was just not feeling it tonight.
"listen hussain..about pak-"
"no I understand..you don't have to come if you dont want. I understand."
"no hussain..I'm going to come. I can't let down everyone."
"and you can let down yourself?" Hussain yelled with hurt in his eyes.
"Hussain...it's better than hurting everyone..and plus it's only for a couple days."
"whatever Ashi..make up your mind and tell me."
"but hussain.." and before I knew it he left into the house.
I got out the car and went to the drivers seat.
I drove to my parents house because I needed to talk to baba.
you idiot!!! this is your first fight with hussain! what the fuck are you doing?
wait..why am I talking to myself?
I don't care! turn around and talk to hussain. NOW!
am I going insane?
no! just listen to me! turn around. I know hussain is in the front porch! he knows what happened last time when you ran out mad!
that's true.
why am I talking to myself again?
GO!
I make a u-turn and drove back home.
I drove up my driveways and I was right..hussain was standing on the porch with his hands in his pockets.
I ran up to him and hugged him.
"I'm sorry." Hussain near shedding into tears.
"shh..I'm sorry..I know I'm overreacting but Pakistan is where my life got ruined..and I know I'm going to have to face it..and so I wanna face it with you..only you." I held his face in my hands. "I love you very much." and kissed his nose. yes I kissed his nose..wasn't in the mood to kiss his lips.
"I love you so much damnit! I can't say it enough. it's hard to explain sometimes."
I saw hussains eyes water. "say something. please?" my voice faded by the time I said please. why was I being so emotional? wtf was wrong with me?
"I love you too..beyond what I show." he finally spoke! I let out a sigh of relief.
"thank god..I love you soo much. can't live without you." this time he kissed my nose. "let's go?"
"yeah..but let's wash up first..I don't wanna go with blood shot eyes due to crying."
"Ok."
~.~
after I showered I changed into a black dress that sinches in at the waist and flows out, with nude pumps..along with big earrings since I put my hair up. I walked into the living room to a dressed up hussain. he was wearing a white button down with a maroon sweater over along with blue slim fit pants.
God Ashi stop drooling. he's your husband!
"Ashi!!!" Hussain snapped me out of my thoughts.
"huh? what?"
"let's go shall we?"
"uh- yeah let's go." way to make a good outa yourself. I was mentally face palming myself. he makes me feel the same way each time I see him...like the first day we met.
Ashi! you sound like kajol from KKHH stop! he's your husband!
"stop checking out my butt."
Hussain laughed while I walked behind him.
"am not."
"don't lie to me. I'm your husband. I know when your checking me out."
"stop it!!!" I whined like a little girl.
"than stop checking me out!"
"I can't help it..you have a nice butt." and I gave it a squeeze.
"stop it." he mimicked my whining.
"I'll squeeze it more."
"Ashi behave yourself."
"than let me check you out!"
"after Pakistan baby." he winked at me.
~.~
we walked in to my parents house and ran to children.
"babies!!!"
"babe?"
"yeah.."
"you've been gone for 5 hours."
"hey. don't blame me..I love my kids."
"you're acting like I don't."
I got up and hugged him. I don't know what was wrong with me.
"I love you so much ashi!"
"I love you too." nearly in tears.
we just stood there. I didn't want this moment to end.
"don't ever hurt me...ever."
