Survive ♡︎ Na Jaemin

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It's been a week now since the incident happened and Jiyeon hasn't gone to school. She was giving everyone a silent treatment and just stares. Nina knew her condition and just told Taeyong that she was depressed and just let her be, he did understand but that didn't mean he wouldn't try to find the reason. Jaemin has been feeling guilty about this. He saw how everyone was worried for Jiyeon and him knowing she's like this because he played with her a bit made him feel terrible.

Jaemin is a nice and sweet guy when he doesn't have to put his cold side on to others that don't know him personally. He is the one that cares the most of the members and takes care of them. He's always there just to listen to anyone's problem and be there for comfort or support. Even when he's injured, he's more worried about the members and how they are even when he's about to die. Jiyeon's mind wasn't clear at all. She had no interactions with anyone even when she's in a house filled with 23 people.

She felt like her life was back to how it was before she met Nina or saw any of the guys. She didn't even wake up to cook for the guys anymore or spend time with Jaemin. The guys did miss her cooking and they always wondered if she ate and if she's doing well. Jiyeon never did have a normal life so she can't say she missed her normal life. She did however miss the quality time she spent with Jaemin. She felt nice and comfortable around him. He was an easy person to talk to or just feel happy. She missed all his lames jokes when it did make her heart beat more or when he always tried to get her more nervous.

Flashback

Jiyeon and Jaemin were going on a daily walk on the weekend. They both liked their alone time and he suggested to go on a walk with her. "Jiyeon, you look really familiar." Jaemin said with a smirk. "why wouldn't I? I live in the same house as you for months now." Jiyeon said confused. "no no, not that. It's just you look like my future wife." Jiyeon just pushed him and walked off alone. She was hiding her smile but that sentence made her cheeks light up.

"Jiyeon! wait up" Jaemin said running to catch her but she just continued to walk faster. "JIYEON!! stop walking fast" he said but she just started to run making Jaemin sigh before running faster. "gotcha" he said as he hugged her making her freeze. "you could have fell you know" he said as he released the hug. "uh... no I wouldn't, I'm careful" she said as she crossed her arms. "yeah totally, you're in danger or hurt everyday" Jaemin said laughing while ruffling her hair.

Jieyon and Jaemin have had a lot more skin ship recently. Jaemin is that type of person so Jiyeon understood but she couldn't help to flinch every time from skin contact. But since her relationship with Jaemin got closer, she hasn't been flinching much recently. She couldn't help but to tear up from the moments she remembered just now.

She wanted to get her thoughts off so for once, she finally left the room. She couldn't talk to anyone and she noticed most of the guys weren't there so she just went to Taeyong's room and wrote a little note saying she'll be gone for a bit. Jiyeon grabbed her purse and left the house, walking to the graveyard again. As she bent down to her grandma's grave, she couldn't help but wipe her tears.

"grandma, I hate life right now. Can I please feel better? I wish you were here to comfort me grandma. I do miss you, so much" She said whimpering. Jiyeon kept on crying while in front of her grandma's grave. She soon got up and left to her grandpa."hey grandpa" she said as she put the flowers down and cleaned up his stone. "you probably would tell me to stop crying right now right? You would tell me to eat too wouldn't you? I'm sorry for nothing eating at all these weeks. I'll go buy food after I leave. I promise" she said as her stomach was growling a bit. She left and decided to enter a pizza shop. She ordered only a slice but she wasn't able to finish it all sadly. She couldn't help but to just cry at her life right now. She did sincerely miss everyone even the one who hurt her, Jaemin. She hasn't though much about her parents after her nightmares stopped and she was free for a bit.

She came home and saw the guys all there but she just tried to hide and enter her room secretly. She just changed and wanted her mind to be free and walked over to the training room downstairs. Jiyeon saw the dream team there but just walked past them to the other training room that was empty. "do you think she's okay" Jisung asked concerned! "I hope she is" Jeno said sighing. Jaemin felt a little hurt. He knew he had feelings for her still after seeing her again. He did come into conclusion he did like her but he couldn't do anything after all, he's the reason Jiyeon isn't talking to anyone at the moment.

She did keep the door open a little just to see the guys but mainly Jaemin. She really missed him and she hated this feeling. Her heart beating more every time she saw him. She didn't know what it was though. She left the room and knocked on the door. "hey Jiyeon, did you get hurt" Kun asked ! "no not that, can you check if my heart is good" she asked. "um.. yeah sure" Kun said as he went to grab equipment and Jiyeon sat down on the chair. "everything is fine, is there something wrong?" Kun explained with a little worry for her

"it's just like I feel weird whenever I see this person, like my heart beats so fast and like it's just weird" she explained while Kun had a smile on his face. "Jiyeon, do you have a crush?" he teased, "no, I don't think so" she said while Kun sat down on the chair next to her? "okay so, when you see this person, your heart beats faster?" he asked making her nod. "do you get this weird feeling in your stomach too and when you talk to them, do you always smile and feel happy around them?" he said making her nod again. "Yeah all of that, it's so weird" she said making Kun laugh

"Jiyeon, you have a crush" he said making Jiyeon shake her head, 'I can't, I can't like him" she said in a sad tone. "It's only been two months and I can't have a crush on him Kun" she said making Kun sign in response. "Jiyeon, it's normal. You can't control your heart. Can I know who it is?"

"um... it's- weird.." she said in a questionable tone, "I won't tell anyone" he said. "it's just, i don't know" Jiyeon said making Kun understand. "alright, I'm here whenever" un said as he was about to leave. 'no Kun, it's Jae- Jaemin" she shuttered out. Kun felt like he already knew what her answer was which made him smile and smirk at her. "Ah, I was correct" he said in joy

"huh?" was what came out as she watched Kun dance happily, "the guys made a bet on who would be your crush in this house. I mean we're all handsome guys and most of us are single so we made a bet with the everyone to see who you'd like" Kun said with a smile. "you guys What!" she screamed. "A lot of us actually won, we all thought it was Jaemin" he said laughing. "wow geez, you guys are annoying" She said opening the door

"thanks for listening to my rant" she proceeded to leave the room. "wow, I have a crush on Jaemin, the flirt" she said to herself. "let's hope I get over it soon as possible" and with that she ended up in bed sleeping.

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Happy brithday to the one that lights up the world!!! RENJUN!!! ❤️❤️
Also DREAM COMEBACK IS OFFCIAL I CANT OMG!! It's happening in April I can't wait