𝑆𝑜𝑢𝑘𝑜𝑘𝑢 𝑂𝑛𝑒𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑡𝑠

-Attemped-

TW:SUICIDE AND SELF HARM

Because of Arahabaki and all the nightmare days and nights Chuuya was suicidal, All he wanted to do was get rid of that beast so in order to do that he had to die somehow. Chuuya often hurt himself to try and get rid of the pain but of course it only caused more and soon dazai noticed chuuyas drastic change of weight,mood and overall self.
"Hey Chuuya are you doing okay?"
"I'm fine"
That was always the answer dazai got anytime he got worried for chuuya and since they lived together he always noticed Chuuya stopped eating a lot for days and weeks and soon one day when chuuya got home from the port mafia he fainted as soon as he walked in the door. "CHUUYA!" Dazai ran to chuuya to catch him so he didn't fall on the floor and when he caught him, he carried chuuya to the couch to make sure he was okay. When dazai took off chuuya's jacket he noticed multiple self harm scars on his arms and how skinny he looked "Chuuya you idiot" Dazai said that in to chuuya's chest and soon chuuya woke up to dazai cuddling him on the couch somehow, "Dazai wake up!" Chuuya pushed dazai off of him "Ouch! That hurt!" Dazai whined. "I'm going in my room you can sleep out here if your that tired." Chuuya groaned and he walked to his room.
Though when chuuya got to his room he sat down at his desk and wrote down what he was gonna do tomorrow, He was gonna jump off a building.
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Soon the next day came and of course dazai was still asleep on the couch and it was already 2:21 pm so neither of them decided to go to theyre different organizations and since dazai was asleep Chuuya decided to go to the building he planned to go to way earlier. He walked to a tall abandoned building where him and dazai used to hang out in when dazai was still in the port mafia, he sat on the edge scrolling on his phone until he got a message from dazai.
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Dazai:Chuuya where are you?
Dazai:Sorry I woke up late but where did you go?
Dazai:Chuuya?
Dazai:Chuuya why aren't you answering?
Dazai:Whatever I'm gonna go to your room to try and find you one more time.
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Chuuya just decided to ignore dazai's messages until he realized that he left his notebook out that said where he was, Chuuya of course panicked but soon brushed it off. He didn't think Dazai would come all the way here. Right?

Dazai walked into chuuyas room only to find razor blades on his bed along with napkins filled with blood,Torn clothes and a notebook on his desk. Dazai rushed to his desk to read what it said in the notebook and realized what Chuuya was gonna do. The notebook had the words "Monster" writing all over it and a horrifying sentence on one page "Tomorrow I will jump off a building to finally get rid of this monster that lives inside of me. I will be free from this stupid life I got stuck with." Dazai read it over and over until he rushed out of chuuyas room to put on his shoes and soon ran out of the apartment running to the building it said he was at.

Dazai finally got there and saw Chuuya sitting on the edge of the roof with a scared expression on his face "Chuuya what are you doing. Don't do it. Come here and we can talk about this" Dazai begged Chuuya as he came closer to chuuya but with every step dazai took chuuya took a step closer to the edge until he finally jumped off without dazai looking. "CHUUYA NO!" Dazai yelled and soon he ran to chuuya and jumped with him hugging him, "Dazai please get off me I don't want you to die with a monster!" Chuuya begged Dazai until Dazai kissed him until they finally hit the ground. Chuuya was first to hit the ground since he jumped first and soon dazai hit the ground but chuuya managed to float dazai a little before he passed out, Once dazai got off the ground he ran to find Chuuya and he found Chuuya bleeding from his legs and slightly from his head "Chuuya come on wake up. Chuuya wake up please." Dazai begged, Chuuya had a small pulse so he was still alive but he was basically almost dead. Soon dazai rushed chuuya to a hospital before he lost the pulse.
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Chuuya woke up in a hospital robe and in a hospital bed and then he saw dazai laying his head on chuuya's legs while sleeping and sitting in a chair,Chuuya ran his fingers in dazai's hair and then started crying again because he hurt dazai when he was supposed to be alone during his final breath but instead dazai went down with him. Soon dazai woke up but chuuya was staring out the window "Chuuya you idiot if you were feeling like that you should have told me." Dazai whispered but he said that loud enough so that chuuya could hear him but chuuya of course ignored him until he saw dazai kiss him, "I don't want you to get hurt Chuuya please promise me you won't do it again." Dazai muttered when he pulled away from chuuya. Chuuya stayed silent until he saw dazai grab him by the collar with anger and tears in his eyes "Say something you Idiot! I thought I actually lost you when i saw you on the ground!" Dazai yelled while crying, "I didn't ask for you to save me dazai." Chuuya muttered. "Just promise me you won't do it again atleast!" Dazai yelled again still holding onto Chuuya "I promise I won't do it again." Chuuya started crying again soon because he was tired from today. "Okay now scoot over I'm gonna lay with you." Dazai let go off Chuuya and started pushing him over but chuuya didn't fight him or push him back he just let dazai cuddle him while he cried into dazai's chest and soon fell asleep while dazai stayed awake.

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