𝑆𝑜𝑢𝑘𝑜𝑘𝑢 𝑂𝑛𝑒𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑡𝑠

-smile-

"All I ever wanted to see is your smiling and happy but now all I see is your dead body..."
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TW:SUICIDE AND SELF HARM

Darkness.
That's all he saw. His room was dark. No light. That's what he liked anyways. He hadn't been out of his room in 7 days, he hadn't eaten anything in 7 day's And he hadn't slept in 7 days. He was only laying in bed staring at the wall until his thoughts were interrupted with his phone ringing, he looked at who was calling and he didn't recognize the name so he answered the call.

"Dazai! Where have you been?! That kid Atsushi somehow found my number and asked me to call you since you hadn't showed up to the agency!" As soon as he picked up the phone he was greeted with yells of a voice he did not recognize "Who are you?" Dazai said softly "What?! It's Chuuya what up with you?!" So his name is Chuuya, Dazai figured he must have known chuuya for a while but he did not remember anything but his thoughts were interrupted by a sharp pain in his arm but he did not bother to look. "Dazai?" Chuuya spoke again "Is everything okay?" You can clearly hear the worry in chuuya's voice "I... don't know." Dazai went back to looking at the wall "Whatever I'm coming to check on you something dosent seem right." Chuuya soon hung up, after chuuya ended the call Dazai soon figured out he wasn't in bed he was on his bedroom floor and the pain in his arm got worse until finally he fainted.
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"Dazai Wake up!" Chuuya yelled, he was sitting in front of dazai wrapping his arm in more bandages. "So this is what's up. Jeez you could have told me when I called you!" Chuuya continued to yell. "Your Chuuya?" Dazai finally fully woke up but still couldn't remember "Yea?!" Chuuya was now looking at dazai annoyed "Sorry for some reason I can't remember anything. I'm really tired though." Dazai started drifting off to sleep until he got slapped "Dont sleep just yet you cut so deep that could have killed you. That was probably your plan though." Chuuya started to stand up but dazai stayed on the floor "You look terrible let me go get you something to eat." Chuuya walked out of dazais room and when he did dazai started crying, "What is happening to me." Dazai spoke through his cries.

"Here I got you some ramen it's enough to-" Chuuya was cut off by a crying dazai, something he's never seen "Are you okay?!" Chuuya rushed to dazai to try and get him to stop crying "I'm sorry I don't know what's happening." Dazai finally started to calm down "Listen I don't know either but you can't control that I know for sure now come on eat you look terrible." Chuuya handed him the food but he didn't eat it, something felt wrong "What do I need to feed it to you?!" Chuuya said sarcastically but all he was greeted with was silence "Eat." Chuuya said in a serious tone now until finally he ate it. "Now you can sleep." Chuuya was about to go back home until he heard dazai "What day or time is it." Dazai's words sounded empty "Today is Sunday and it's 3 am. Do you want me to stay with you tonight?" Chuuya was know leaning on the doorframe to dazais room "Please." Dazai finally stood up and walked to his bed, "Whatever I'm sleeping on the couch." Chuuya walked out of the room.
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It was now 5 am and Chuuya woke up because he had a weird feeling that something happened so he went to dazais room first. The door is locked. He never locks his bedroom door "Dazai is everything okay?" Chuuya said loud enough to hear from the other room but all he got was silence. Something wasn't right for sure so he picked the lock obviously, though when he walked in Dazai was back on the floor shaking "Is everything okay?!" Chuuya rushed to him "Yea everything's fine." Dazai said softly he seemed to be calming down now that chuuya was with him "Come on let's go lay down." Chuuya helped dazai stand up and helped him sit down on the bed but this time he stayed in his room and didn't leave "Sleep." Chuuya said in a serious tone. "I can't even if I close my eyes all it does is make everything dark." Dazai said trying to fall asleep. "Will it help if I lay next to you." Chuuya started to lay down "Yea I guess so." Dazai felt arms wrap around his waist, "This is only happening once so enjoy it." Chuuya said while drifting off to sleep.
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Chuuya was first to wake up so he was already in the living room waiting for dazai to wake up until finally the bandaged man walked out of his room still clearly tired "Alright now that I know your okay I'm leaving." Chuuya said as he started to stand up "Please don't go." Dazai said softly, you could hear the slight panic in his voice and chuuya knew that while dazais like this he shouldn't be left alone. "Fine but atleast let me go get you some food you barely have anything." Chuuya started to put on his shoes "Are you fine to stay by your self?" Chuuya said with his hand on the door knob "Yea I'll be fine just let me do this." Dazai walked up to chuuya and kissed him "Gross what did you do that for!" Chuuya slightly yelled, "Just felt like I should." Dazai said that as chuuya started to walk out.

"please don't come back I don't want you to see me." Dazai said as the door closed but Chuuya didn't hear him.

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Chuuya finally got back and opened the front door but something felt wrong. worse then it usually does so he set down the bags and rushed to dazai's room "Dazai!" Chuuya yelled while rushing to open the door but it was locked "Dazai open this door right now!" Chuuya continued to yell until he gave up "Dazai please for the love of god open the door please." Chuuya was sure that either he's dead or almost dead because he would've opened the door by now. And soon chuuya kicked the door open he didn't care if he broke it but that's when he saw it.

His body hanging from a rope with more cuts on his arms.

"D-Dazai?" Chuuya just stared at the body. Everything in his body hurt. He could barely look at dazais lifeless eyes. "All I wanted to see is you smile but now all I see is your dead body."Chuuya said softly "I shouldn't have left you alone this is all my fault!" Chuuya was now yelling. But all he got in response was silence. "I'm sorry I didn't stay with you." Chuuya fainted from exhaustion.
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Chuuya woke up finally "Was it all a dream?!" Chuuya instantly ran out of the room looking for dazai "Woah what's up with you?!" Dazai sat up from the couch "Your.. Your still here?!" Chuuya just stood there looking at him "Yea? What did you have a nightmare?" Dazai asked softly starting to get worried "Yea but it's over now." Chuuya just smiled hoping that the nightmare would never become reality.

Until a few days later it was reality.. it all happened again but this time. Chuuya went with Dazai.
The perfect double suicide.
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A/N:sorry lol