The Playboy Got Serious

NOT AN UPDATE

A/n:

HI PO! Well, wala ako sa mood magsulat because, I am not quite okay.

You see, medyo masama loob ko with certain people. (Won't name names because binabasa nila 'to) So ayon.

It's just, sometimes, I feel left out.

I don't know why but I do.

Maybe because, lagi nalang akong nasa huli. Or option lang nila ako pag wala na silang makausap. Parang, feeling ko, di nila mapapansin pag nawala ako. And ir hurts. It truly hurts.

Kasi, tinuring ko sila as my sisters and now what? Parang sunod-sunuran lang ako sakanila.

Pero kasalanan ko, I thought that I was part of the group but it's not what I feel.

What I think is not what I feel.

Ganyan ako. Alam nyo? They don't really know kung kelan ako, masaya at kung kelan ako malungkot.

And then, the comparison starts.

Yung friends ko kasi nung elementary. They know kung ano yung nararamdaman ko agad.

Maybe because, matagal na nila akong kilala unlike my new friends. But still, I'm a very obvious person tho I TRY SO HARD to hide it.

I'm at class right now. Tho, hindi na kasi nakauwi na ako pag pinost ko 'to. But I'm at class while writing this.

Ayun na nga, sorry kung madrama. Minsan lang naman.

I just miss my old friends so much and all.

Kanina nga, I cried. Di nila napansin because they're too busy laughing.

Di naman sa gusto ko lagi akong napapansin pero comfort lang and makiramdam since sila yung reason kung bat ako umiyak.

Well, maybe that's life. You cannot always get what you want.

So ayun, sa mga bumasa thank you po! And sa hindi, it's orayt. Hehe.

Shoutout sa mga old friends ko na super miss ko na :3

JAZMINE CABURNAY, TRISHA REYES, BIANCA SOLIS, TRENCE GARCIA, LLOYD PINEDA, DUKE DE CASTRO, JOHNDEL AMODO, AJIE RUIVIVAR, KIANA SUSARNO, JOMARI RACHO, KACELYN AÑASCO, ANGEL CRESENCIO, SEALTIEL AGAPITO, ALICE CALATA, JONATHAN PALAJE, PATRICIA, BRIX PANUELOS, ICA ANINO, LOU GALLENERA, JEWEL DIMAYUGA, ISAAC JUAN, DAN SANTIAGO, RALPH CAO etc. Not all Narranians tho. omeglezayn (kiana) yan lang alam kong account hihi

Lots of love,
ArraLurvesYa

PS: I'M SO HURT!