BLINDNESS

Death Anniversary

It's been a year now and yet I still haven't got any news coming from Y/N, there was one time where the girls and I were going to the mall we saw the Bangtang boys so I had to question them on what were Y/N'S whereabouts.

They replied something that's very unusual somehow they are hiding something from me. That thought caught my mind, should I go and visit Y/N myself?
Dahyun: Unnie! (Her voice suddenly snapped me back to reality)
Sana: Eh you scared me!
Dahyun: (laughs) are you thinking about him again?
Sana: Him?! Dahyunie I've already moved on there's no point of thinking about him if I've already let him go.
Dahyun: Are you sure about that? And why is there a picture of him on your phone? (She pointed at my phone)
Sana: W-well, I was about to contact him because it's his mother's death anniversary and I wanted to visit him too just.. you know.. closure (I whispered the last word)
Dahyun: Is the death anniversary really the reason for your visit? Or you just wanted to see him? (She said teasingly)
Sana: Eh? Silly of course it's the death anniversary! Even though I didn't meet his mother in person but still I'm thankful for her
Dahyun: Okay (both hands up) if that's what you say (leaves the room)

Should that be an enough reason to visit Y/N? Well I don't know I just wanted to talk to him just for a bit somehow I just want some time to clarify everything.

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After the practice, we still have some free time. Since it's still afternoon I decided to go and visit Y/N. I changed my clothes to a more comfy and a more disguised outfit, I also hid my face with a mast and a cap.

Manager-nim drove me to the house where Y/N is living currently. I don't know if he is still living here since he'll be more wealthy because he's already a flight attendant.

I thanked the manager and went out of the car, the nervousness corrupted my body I couldn't move an inch even a little step, my body wont let me. Somehow there's something holding me back of going and knocking on the door.

I took a big exhale and starts to walk, little by little, the beat of my heart began raising. 3 knocks made the door open, I hear someone talking on the other side of the door.
???: That must be the delivery.
-The door opened revealing J-Hope-

I slowly smiled at him as his face turns to being nervous. He looked left and right and immediately moved the door til' his head is only seen.
Sana: Oppa, it's me Sana (I said taking off the mask and hat)
Hobi: (laughs nervously) H-hi San-a (he said and called RM)
-RM then took Hobi's place-
Sana: What's going on RM oppa? Is something wrong?
RM: Well, if you're finding Y/N he's not here yet Sana he's still on a flight today and he'll return tomorrow.
Sana: Oh really? I guess I'll just have to go back tomorrow then.
RM: Okay Sana, take ca-
-RM's words were cut by Y/N shouting-
Y/N: Is that the delivery guy? Come on get it ready and we'll go to mom. It's her death anniversary today.
Sana: Wait, is that Y/N? Why are you hiding him from me oppa?
RM: Look Sana, I can explain

Without hesitating I pushed the door and reveal myself. I look at everyone and the last person I looked was Y/N.....

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On a wheelchair.

RM: I'm sorry Sana, we weren't able to protect Y/N. You'll know everything when the time comes if he's ready to talk to you (he patted my shoulders and walked back to the boys.)

As I keep on moving forward, Y/N is always talking.
Y/N: Hyung.. (he said as he tried to find Taehyung's hand) where are you? (Tae then reached his hand)
V: I'm here Y/N.
Y/N: Hyung was that the delivery guy? (He asked V while his head is still intact forwards)

I'm few inches away from him already the storm at my eyes began to burst down to my cheeks. Y/N doesn't know that I'm here so I tried to cover my mouth as I cry even harder.

V then whispered something to Y/N then he suddenly shut his mouth and began to reach his both hand somehow finding a figure to reach on.
Y/N: S-Sana? Is that yo-you? A-are you standing in-infront of me? (He said as he still kept on reaching)

I walked and reached his hand as my tears bursts into a great storm. My knees became weak then collapsed. The boys then helped me get up but I insisted to sit down on the floor.

His warm hand is still intact with mine, I put my head on his hand while his free hand begins to caress my hair. Then he started talking.
Y/N: Are you crying? (He said as he tries to find my cheek)
Sana: Hmm... ani (I lyingly said and then wiped my cheek)
Y/N: (laughs) I'm sorry Sana. (He said while looking the other way)
Sana: I should be the one apologizing Y/N.
Y/N: No, I should be. Look at me now (chuckles) All I can see is darkness now.
Sana: I-Im sorry Y/N.
-The heaviness of my heart began to spread throughout my body, now I couldn't barely talk and breathe-
Y/N: I should've just run and go to you but I was too scared that maybe you'd also reject me.
-I remained silent-
Y/N: I was too late on realizing everything now that I'm blind. Well, you should stop crying now it's not your fault. (He suddenly grabbed a handkerchief from his side pocket and handed it to me) here. Comfort yourself using this (chuckles) I can't wipe them for you since I can't see a thing so here's an handkerchief just imagine that I'm wiping them.
-I wiped all of the tears away-
Y/N: Well Sana... I just wanted you to know that I regret that day. I regret the words that I said even though I was drunk. I was being stupid that day.....
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I'm sorry, I know you're happy now that you're an idol. You can let go of this nobody now. I love you Sana and that'll be the last time you'll ever hear that again.