BLINDNESS

Fading

SANA'S POV
Waking up knowing that a special someone has already left your heart is the worst. Early in the morning all you do is think of the reason why he left, recall the actions that made him think of a bad outcome, and words that could hurt him but nothing seems comes to my mind.

Eventually all of my unnie's came up to my room and tried to comfort me but nothing's effective. Every morning I have no appetite while at night all I do is cry til' I sleep. That's what basically my routine.

NAYEON'S POV
Sana's really down right now, she is not eating well and she's prolly crying at night. Nothing's really coming up to her mind even at practice she's always tired and she's always staring at the floor.

So I came up to mind and just take some day off with the girls. Since we still don't have a concept for our new song, we'll just go on a tour and have fun while planning for the next song's concept.
Nayeon: Girls, gather up for a while! (I said as I clap my hands)
~The girls quickly ran up and formed a circle~
Nayeon: So I was planning on going on a vacation since we still have nothing in mind about the concept of our new song. Why not spend this time on having fun? (I said excitedly)
~The girls kept on looking at each other then all of a sudden they accepted my request~

I kept on glancing at Sana while the girls were jumping around for joy, Sana is just seated at the couch not minding everyone while her head's down.

I slowly walk towards her but a hand grasped my arm. I look towards the direction of the owner of the hand and Jihyo is present.
Jihyo: It's no use unnie, let's just leave her and give her some time to think. (She said as she let go of my arm)
I nodded as a reply and looked back at Sana.

SANA'S POV
Well we're going on a trip with my unnies but It seems like I'm not in the mood to go. I don't know what to do but I also needed some time to rest and have fun, the voices around my head always contradict all of my decisions even the good ones.

I opened my phone and looked at the photo's of me and Y/N, I slowly scrolled everything as I appreciate every moment we had. A sudden tear comes down to my cheek. I wiped my tear while Dahyun handed me a handkerchief.
Dahyun: Here unnie, use this (hands the handkerchief)
Sana: Thank you Dahyun-a (Accepted the handkerchief and wiped the watery part)
~Dahyun sits beside me~
Dahyun: Are you okay unnie? I mean you really look pale and thin, are you maintaining on eating? (She said caressing my back)
Sana: I'm not okay Dahyun, Y/N broke up with me because I wasn't there when he needed me the most. I was too focused on being an idol without knowing that a special person is suffering. (I said still looking down at the floor)
Dahyun: Well unnie, it's not your loss. In order for you to be happy just slowly forgive and forget him.
Sana: That's easy for you to say Dahyun but it's really hard to do that especially when you're so into the person. (A huge sigh came out afterwards)
Dahyun: Well unnie it's hard since you aren't motivated to do so. Now that I'm here I'll help you and we'll try to set your mind off of Y/N. (She said smiling)
Sana: I'll try Dahyun (fake smile)

Is it really that hard to move on? Should I find something that would make me forget him? Maybe I'll forget him whenever I'll spend time with the girls? Should I go for it? Should I join them?
Simply. THE ANSWER IS YES!
Time for me to forget Y/N!

Everyone is now gathered at the dinning room, I slowly walked towards the table and Jeongyeon gladly pulled the chair for me to sit. All of them were laughing and enjoying while I, on the other hand just kept my head down.
Nayeon: Sana? Do want to say something? (She said as she grabbed my hand)
Sana: M-m-me? (I stuttered)
Jihyo: Yea! It seems like you have something at the tip of your tongue
Sana: W-well, I just wanted to apologize to all of you for ignoring and for worrying you guys about me. I was really just hopeless because something special broke my heart. (I said as I feel ashamed)
Mina: It's okay Sana-ssi, we're still here! You'll never feel hopeless now! (She hugged me)
Sana: I realized that and I was too late
Momo: Sana-ya!! (Hugs me)
Sana: Sorry guys, Very very very sorry! (Cries)
Jihyo: GROUP HUG!!
~Everyone ran towards where I'm sitting and formed a group hug~

After some few talks after the dinner everyone packed excitedly they were talking about the new concept that will happen for our new song and the joy that will be happening during the planning all of those stuff.

While they were packing, I go to my room and packed. After that I slowly open the curtains widely while I look at the beautiful dark sky with its shining little stars. Suddenly an airplane passed then I talked to myself.
Sana: You must be there now right Y/N? You must be happy now that you've already touched the sky that you dreamt of. You're finally wearing the uniform right? Are you happy with your life now? Now that I'm gone? Are doing fine? Are you taking care of yourself?
-a sudden tear fell down on my cheek-

I wiped the tear that fell on my cheek and after I looked at the sky again but the plane is already unseen. I slowly go back to my bag.
Sana: I know you're happy Y/N; Now, now I'll finally fade and let you go. Goodbye I love you. (I said as I close my bag)