The Hidden feeling.

Chapter 6

Hi people! I'm very sorry for not updating in forever and idk how long it'll take me to update again. This chapter is also shorter than all of my previous chapters so I'm also sorry about that. I hope you enjoy

The next morning was fun. I woke up early, anxious for my second "date" with Jack. I watched Spongebob with Emma until 9:30 when I decided to get ready. I went into my room and put on a grey polo and a jean jacket and skinny jeans I may or may not have stolen from Jenny one day. I swooped my hair to the side with product which I never do. I brushed my teeth and by then Jack said he was here. Of course he was six minutes early but I didn't mind. I walked outside to see Jack staring in my direction till he saw me which then his face lit up, so did mine.

I opened the car door with a very friendly hello.

¨Thanks for getting me.¨

¨Well you can't legally drive and you werent gonna walk there, so I'm your last resort.¨

¨What about my siblings?¨

¨I'm way better than them." I smile at him and nod my head.

We drive to the nearest coffee shop that is across the street from the always busy Starbucks so we never go there. This coffee shop is called "A La Mode" and I freaking love this place. I order a Latte because Seth said that it has the most caffeine (I don't know how accurate that is but I'll take his word for it just this once.) Jack orders a vanilla cappuccino and he smiles straight at me while taking a sip. After that I got all awkward.

"How is your face?" He asks, pointing to my bruised face.

"Oh my God, I'm fine, Jack. It's fine." He doesn't look satisfied with that answer and then looks down at my arm which has the scar from when I burned my arms on the boiling water last night.

"What happened to your arm?!" He shrieked, which I found to be extremely adorable.

"Shhh. Don't cause a scene. I burned my arm last night on boiling water when I was making Pasta."

"You're getting hurt a lot." He says with a smile

"I have really bad luck." I smiled back.

"I've noticed." I rolled my eyes.

We sat there in silence. It wasn't that awkward, maybe it was just me. I liked having Jack just sitting there. It was nice. I felt like I didn't have to worry about my parents or my siblings or really even being gay. I just sat there admiring him. That's all.

Maybe that's all I needed.

My thoughts were interrupted.

"So my mom keeps going on and on about the cabin trip that's happening? What really is that?" Jack asks curiously.

"Um... it's an annual trip that the church takes down to the woods by Caribou Lake. Me and Seth call it Holy Lake. Anyway It's just a fun trip we take during the winter. Mom always makes us go."

Jack nods his head, and I look at him suspiciously.

"Do I have to go?"

"Knowing your family, yes. You will," Jack puts his forehead on the table. "Hey, at least you'll get to hang out with me." He brings his head up smiling.

"Okay, I'm in." I can't help but blush a little. God that damn smile of his. "You wanna go to the park?"

"It's too cold," I whine.

"It's the warmest day of the month. C'mon, please?"

The next thing I knew I was in the car driving to the park. I was pissed. I didn't want to go but he somehow convinced me.

We got out and Jack ran to the swings. He looked like a child younger than Emma. The fact that a park brought him this much joy was the most adorable thing ever.

"Nicky c'mon!" My heart dropped. That was the first time he'd ever call me Nicky. It's usually reserved for my siblings or best friends. I always kinda hated it, 'cause it made me feel young, but hearing Jack say it made me feel like that's who I am.

I ran over to the swings, where he was.

"You really love swinging,"I say laughing at his excitement.

"Indeed I do," He cheered. "It's so care free you know? I mean it's like you sit there going back and forth and you think about nothing other than what's happening right here, right now. Like hanging out with you is all I'm thinking about."

I smiled brightly at him. He had to know how I felt. Telepathically he must have known. And you know maybe he might feel the same way. I had that glisten of hope. The kind where in your gut you know your truth, and you know someone else's. You can feel that there's something there.

Jack slowed down until the swing was completely stopped. He followed my gaze, which was on the mountains. The dark green and blue mountains, covered with trees and rock made the sky not look so big. They're like a barrier that keeps me enclosed in this sad town. I hated them, but in this moment I could finally see why people loved them. I smiled.

"I know mountains are all the rage right now," Jack laughed at his own joke.

I turned around to smile back but before I could do anything his lips were on mine. I stood frozen not knowing what to do. Jack pulled away and looked embarrassed. We were both blushing and looked like baby deer lost in the woods. I was stunned. I don't know how long the silence lasted, but it felt like at least sixteen hours.

"I'm sorry," Jack said, panicking. Before I could think I kissed him. I had no clue what I was doing but I just went for it.

The kiss was short but long enough to get the message. I put everything I had into that kiss. It was messy but not desperate. After we both let go it was awkward again. It wasn't the bad kind though, and this time I was sure. We both without speaking walked back to the car and just sat there. That's it. That was all I needed. He held my hand the whole way home. It was everything I ever wanted and for the first time in a long time I was completely happy.