Kaitlyns pov
I woke up to the sound of murmuring coming from downstairs. It's Tristan and the boys again. I felt weird today, my throat hurt and I just felt weird. I got out of bed and walked lazily downstairs.
"Kaitlyn, is that you?" Asked Tristan
"No its the local murderer" I replied
"Okay" he called
I went into the kitchen to get myself some juice and a small snack. I don't want to eat too much. I got a special k breakfast bar out of the cupboard, made my juice and then sat at the dinner table, nibbling on the breakfast bar.
Tristan waltz in with brad behind him
"Hey sleep well" he asked
"Yeeaahh" I replied cautiously "why?"
"You had another night terror last night" said brad "and it scared me shiteless"
"Sorry" I said finishing the bar "imma go upstairs now so....uh....bye" and I awkwardly walked away
"Oh wait Kaitlyn, were going shopping today and we were wondering if u wanted to come"
Great, not only do I hate shopping, but I also hate shopping with Tristan. He takes HOURS. All I do is just sit on the changing room chairs and do nothing. Like I said, solo boring
"Really, its just uh-"
"No its just uhs, or buts, your coming with us" he insisted "either that or you have to sleep downstairs with us tonight"
"Wait what?!, they're staying around AGAIN, no offence" i say to brad
"Yeah, its a great way to bond"
"Yeah well I need to 'bond' with my iPod" I exclaimed
"Your already married to it, now please I'll give u spending money"
"I don't want or need money Tristan" I said crossing my arms. "Besides I never knew men liked shopping"
"Argh! Just please come on do this for me"
I studied his face, his eyes were wide and he had a pleading smile on his face. Havent seen that face in a while. Oh god am I really gonna do this, I guess I am
"Fine, I'll go, give me a minute to get changed"
"Yes" screamed Tristan punching the air. I shook my head and was about to go upstairs when I heard
"Shotgun passenger seat" from Connor
Shite.
I ran up the stairs and looked through my wardrobe. You know, I don't feel overly depressing today. I mean yeah I still feel depressed, but not quite to the point where I want to kill myself. Which is good I guess.
I threw on black jeans and a plain white vest top and a black and red checkered jumper as well as my black sneakers, I did the usual make up and voila I was done. I grabbed the emergency money that was taped under the bed, stuffed it in my purse, put it in my schoolbag and walked downstairs I put my schoolbag on the counter and put a bottle of water and another special k breakfast bar in it
"You all ready" asked an unfamiliar voice. I stopped what I was doing and turned around, suprised to find brad standing in the doorway
"Um yes" I nodded, avoiding eye contact.
"Good well i sorta have to wait for you because all of the other guys are already in the car and I'm in the middle so..."
"Um yeah hold on" I ran past him and into the livingroom where I iPod was on charge. I grabbed it and my headphones and I was good to go.
I opened the front door and stepped aside to let brad through so I could close and lock the door. I got onto the back seat and slammed the car door shut. Tristan asked if everybody was here and if we were all good to go, we all replied with a yes and he drove off to the shopping centre. I stuck my headphones in and got lost in a completely different world.
"Psst Kaitlyn, were here" said a voice I nestled deeper into his shoulder breathing in his scent. Wait WHAT?!
I jolted awake to be greeted by brown eyes. Beautiful brown eyes. Wait Kaitlyn snap out of it!
"Ummm" I muttered "sorry" trying to get up
"No its fine" he smiled.
I smiled back at him. I looked away and opened the door as fast as I could, failing miserably and tripping on the way out, falling on my front
"Careful kaits we don't need another broken arm" said Tristan laughing
"I feel like going to Thorpe park tomorrow" said Connor
"Same" said Tristan "why don't we go"
All the boys looked at each other and nodded. They then looked at me.
"Kaitlyn?" Asked James
"Uh yeah I'd love to but scared of rollercoasters and I don't like theme parks" I tragically lied
"Kaitlyn you liar when we went when you were 13 you stood at the top of the saw ride pretending to slap its booty going "whose your mama, whose your mama" said Tristan mimicking the actions. All the boys were laughing and I nearly joined in, that was a fun day.
"Exactly so why would I wanna go again" I argued
"Because it means a lot to your only cousin to see a smile being put on your face because you treat those scary rides like they're your bitches like" and he started mimicking me on that day again shouting whose your mama and I couldn't hold it in that time. I laughed. For the first time in 2 years I laughed. He was embarrassing himself and it was piss your pants hilarious.
"Fine but only because you made me laugh" I smiled
"Wait don't you laugh" asked brad
"Uh not really no" I scratched the back of my head and the smile faded. The old Kaitlyn was back.
We decided to split off Connor James and Tristan went off leaving just me and brad to wonder around the shops
"Soo" I said awkwardly as I looked at the clothes in primark
"How's school?" Asked brad
"You're really bothered" I replied
"Sure" he said
"Its shit really"
"Why is it shit" he asked
"Just is really nothing in particular" just the fact that I'm getting bullied and cutting, starving and wanting to kill myself because of it. I obviously didn't say that to him though, hell tell Tristan and besides its none of his business and I don't know him
"What made you decide to persue in a music career" I asked him mainly to change the subject
"I just love the feeling, when I pick up the guitar and sing all of my feelings and problems away its just the best. The way it speaks to me and the way I speak to it just makes me want to sit there for hours playing away my demons. And in all that time I haven't found an angel"
"Wow" I said
"What" he smiled
"I was expecting you to say something like 'for the hot chicks'"
"Nah I'm romantic" he smiled
"I hate romance" I stated
"Why? Girls normally love it" he said confused
"I'm not like most girls, never want to go to prom, never want to wear a dress, I basically hate anything girly"
"Hmm I like the challenge" he winked
"What" I smiled
"Nothing" he smiled back I got this twisting feeling in my stomach and it made me feel weird. Jesus what is happening to me.
