"Congrats!" I greeted my long time boyfriend with a beam.
"Thank you" the only I got when he came down from the stage.
"Hey!" I called him from a distance. "Let's celeb-----"
"I'm sorry babe, but I have a lot of schedule for today. I love you~ bye!" He stated before leaving me and dashed inside to his van.
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"Vernonie~ it's been a while since we go out together." I said then sat at edge of the bed.
"Hmm...: he groaned then turn his back at me.
"Hey" I tapped his shoulder but I wish I did not.
Glaring at me as if I did a sinful that made him like this.
"Not now babe, I'm tired."
I forced a smile and replied " o-okay... I understand" as I lay down beside him and face the wall.
"Hey?" He called.
"Hmmm?" I answered.
"You know I'm tired, right?"
"..."
"Babe, face me."
I faced him.
"You know that I'm busy promoting my self as a Kpop idol, right?"
I stare at him and slightly nodded.
"So, please understand me."
" I understand you, don't be bother." I comforted.
He sighed then hug me.
"That's why I love you, you always understand... I love you"
"I... I love you too."
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"Happ----"
"I'm busy, gonna call you later. I love you." He stated before he hunged up the call.
I didn't even get to answer his 'I love you'
I deeply sighed then look at the efforts I made for our anniversary.
"I guess, he forgot it again." I sighed then gets up.
"Being kpop Idol is really chaotic. Tsk tsk.." I added as I shook my head with a smile preventing my self not to cry.
"Happy anniversary, babe..." I stated before I blew the candle.
Being in a relationship with an idol is considered as a dream come true, but why do I feel the opposite?
Since he became known all over, is the starting he became cold at me.
Back then, he got time for me. But now, he got not.
We rarely see each other and rarely talk.
Even the most important day to ours, he forget it because of his hectic schedules.
I do understand him being an idol but cant he feel that I need him? I miss him? That I need his presence, attention more than 'I love yous' ?
It sucks, hearing 'I love you' from him but did not show it how the word 'I love you' means.
All I can get is I love you, but not his attention.
Its seems like saying I love you is like a phrase that didn't have a deep meaning to him.
It hurts and I'm sick of Understanding him.
"U-understand me too!" I utter with my cracking voice.
"Y/n I'm tired, Let's talk about it later."
And that is our last conversation before the table turns.
Now, he is the one whose begging attention while I'm the one who's busy.
Feeling this fancy restaurant, sitting in front of him, observing how he change into a fine man after a years is 'I miss him' the only words that filled my mind.
The atmosphere is fine not until the song switch into "More than words" by westlife
Guess what? Destiny is really something.
"Y/n... I... I miss you" the only words he utter after trying several times to have gather with me.
"So, did I" I answered honestly.
He show a faint smile before he reach my hand but before he could I hid it under the table making him pulled his hand and bit his lower lip, feeling the killing pain inside him.
"Just... please give me one chance. I prom-----" he got halted when he saw me giving a smile at him.
A smile that made him think that 'There's no chamce...'
He hardly swallowed tha lump of his throat and I know, I can see how he hold his tears by biting his lower lip.
"I gave you several chances when we are still together, didn't I? And you discarded it. Even our anniversary you forget it."
"I'm soryy"
"I only hear your I love you's but I dont need that. What I need is your time, presence and attention. But you are always busy, tired." I added.
"I- I" he paused "I'm sorry.." the only words he can state.
"No need to be sorry, I already forgave you." With that I get up and leave him.
There.
Alone.
I'm sorry Vernon, but as much as I want to give you a chance, I can't.
"Love, let's go." My fiance called me.
I walked near at him and we walked together.
I looked at him for the last time and there I saw how he break down silently.
He tilted his head to where I am and our gazes met.
I show a smile and tend my gaze at the road.
It's too late for us Vernon.
I'm sorry...
'We can say sorry but that sorry can't change the reality.'
A lesson I've learned with him.... And I hope you learned it to Vernon...
