"Wonwoo..."
You stand up from sitting above the wooden bench. Joyous is clear in your beautiful face. When was the last time we saw each other? I couldn't remember.
Without words I approached and sat beside you.
"How have you've been?" You asked.
"Good."
You sighed and lifted your head to see the starry night sky. I remember when we used to watch the fallen stars. We were so happy back then but now, we felt the opposite.
Silence middled. Our breaths took the words we wanted to spoke and the air passed prevailing our breaths' words.
"Wonwoo..." Shifting my pupils in you, I find you looking at the calm ocean.
"I still love you." You confessed.
I saw you looking at me, guess your hoping for my even answer.
However... "I don't love you. I have come not to like you." I sighed.
"Go back to where your originally were, to where I'm not present."
"But..... I couldn't."
"I... I couldn't bear leaving you. I... I lov----"
"Don't love me. Only pain will remain anyways."
I stood without throwing you a single glance, shoving my hands inside my pocket to feel some warmth. "You did it once, Twice won't be much."
I made a step escaping this scene that I wish had never happened.
"I can't do what I have done before..."
"I can't turn blind eye, turn my back and walk away as if nothing happen! Wonwoo... There's nothing more painful than a painful love."
"Once is enough. I cannot engage in that painful feelings anymore."
"Then go back. Before even more painful memories remain."
"Wonwoo please..."
"Wonwoo..."
Parting with longing. Guess it may be less painful than a tearful meeting.
I heard you cried, call for me. But even if I want to turn my back and face you I couldn't. We're not for each other and that's the cruel reality.
I lie again.
"tto geojitmareul hae"
"(jinshimi anin mareul)"
"tto geojitmareul hae"
"(hago shipji aneun mareul)"
"tto geojitmareul hae."
I drank the glass of wine in one shot as a better smile escaped from me after throwing an eye at the singer.
Huh, he sung as if he's been in that situation.
Another shot was drank, luring myself, hoping for this pain to disappear.
"Nega shireo nan nega shireojyeosseo bogi shireo deo isang~"
Words that I love you because I love you. llack those and that’s why I let you go.
"geuriumgwa ibyeori nunmulppunin mannambodaneun deol apeugetjyo~"
I leaned my back as the memories of our began flashing. The day when we're happy. The day when we didn't care about tommorow. The day when we love each other. The day that I wish will come back.....
"Hello? May I have your attention please?"
I stopped from reminiscing and stared at the singer who caught my attention.
"This message is dedicated to those people out there who can't speak the words they're dread."
"Dude, it's not too late. Go and tell her what you truly feels. I'm sure she's waiting for you."
As if his words was meant for me. Is this the thing that I've been waiting for to confess my true feelings? Is this?
Once again, I put my eyes on him and he smiled at me. Without my notice I ran. I ran, I ran all the way to her.
However.....
I lie again.....
"Congratulations." I greeted and show a fake smile.
"Thank you." You smiled back.
"Honey, she's crying. I think she needed you."
"Aww... Come here little honey pie~"
"Mommy is here~"
Standing to where I am, I watched you played your one year old daughter with your husband.
You were happy.
The face I've seen when we're together was now showing. What if I didn't lie? Maybe I'm in your husband position now.
Happy being with you. Happy building a family that once we promised to each other. Happy.
But it's only what if...
We changed and we wanted more. I hurt you with words that weren’t what I meant. Even as I need you every day, I push you away, Knowing I’m going to regret it.
A better smile drew from me as I turned my back and walked away.
I lie again. Words that I don't want to say. Now here I am regretting, tears are flowing nonstop even if I want to stop. I couldn't.
"Tto geojitmareul hae."
END.
A/N
Hi guys, as you can notice most of the lines of the story was derived from song "Lie again" by svt. It was because I'm exploring another kind of wring which is making the lyrics as the lines. So yeah, hope you loved it!
