Shigadabi (BxB)

Dabi POV

*Last chapter but Dabi's perspective*

I'd never been one for relationships, sure I've had a few hook-ups and one night stands here and there, but nothing was ever serious. They were just a bit of fun, a way to relieve some stress. I would go to a bar, have some drinks, and possibly leave with somebody, whether they were male or female never mattered much to me. I've never thought about getting serious, it's never even crossed my mind.

'So why can't you get him out of your head?' I silently growled at the intrusive voice, his face flashing in my mind. I shook my head as if it would get rid of the voice and picture in my head, but it never helped. 

Ever since I met him he's been a constant in my head, whether I purposely think about him or not. His hair, his smell, his eyes, the feel of his skin. He haunts me and I can't seem to escape him. I haven't even been interested in the people I see at the bars and its starting to anger me.

My parents are the reason I don't want a relationship. I grew up listening to them fight, throwing things, yelling. A few times I interrupted them just to get them to stop, but it never lasted long. They seemed to fight more after each of my siblings were born. Unfortunately after my youngest sibling was born I was sent away for a few years, when I got back it was even worse. I thought perhaps if I used myself as an example they would stop fighting. I sacrificed myself, for nothing. 

I admit I'm scared. I don't want to become like them. I don't want to have kids and ruin those kids like my parents did to me. I don't want to hurt the person I decide to spend my life with. I'm scared of becoming like my father. Despite all of my fear.. He's always in my head. As if to torture me. 

Groaning I pushed myself off my bed and walked out of my room. On the way down the hall I noticed Shigaraki digging through the storage closet.

"What ya looking for 'boss'?" I was curious, the boss normally didn't go through the closets. My heart ached a bit when he simply held a hand up, not sparing me a glance. "Oh- Lizard-man had them. Apparently him and one of the other members got into a bit of a brawl." 

"Great.." I didn't need to see his face to know he rolled his eyes as he muttered clearly unamused.

When the pale haired male began returning the items to the shelves he had removed them from I couldn't stop myself from leaning in to help him. As we worked I felt his eyes on me from my face, hips, hands, my face again, my chest. I felt a smirk curl onto my face and I didn't bother hiding it, I liked the way he looked at me. Shigaraki made me feel warm, it was a strange feeling but not unpleasant.

As soon as Shiggy walked away my feet moved to follow him and I didn't want to stop. He spent the entire way to Spinner rolling his eyes and telling me to go away, to which I would respond with a smile and a slight shake of my head. I was to afraid to speak. I might accidentally slip he'd been on my mind all day. If I did that I don't think I'd be able to face him again for weeks, and right now I wanted to be as close to him as I could.

I grabbed the first aid box from Spinner before Shigaraki could and grabbed his hand taking him to the bathroom. I refused to give up the box and made him sit on the toilet lid, holding the box above my head so I knew he'd have no other choice.  Pulling some gauze, alcohol wipes, and a small wrap out of the box and gently cleaned the drying blood off his hand, removing the small shards of broken crystal. After spending the last few years of my life bandaging my own wounds I knew his cuts weren't deep enough to need stitches but I couldn't stop myself from wishing he did. I placed the gauze strategically on his hand so that it covered the two bigger cuts as well as all the smaller scratches before using the wrap to hold it all in place.  As a last minute decision I opened a band-aid and wrapped it around the tip of his pinkie. I barely caught his wide-eyed expression before grabbing the trash and heading to the bar.

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There's not a lot of talking in this chapter, just what was spoken from the last chapter but in Dabi's perspective. I wanted to give a bit of insight as to how Dabi thinks, and what he thinks of Shiggy.