No Going Back

it's done

I don't own these characters.

It's a cold and rainy afternoon. I'm in Austin to pick something up from my old boss. As I walk through the doors I really hope I don't see Jane. I don't want to see him hurt, that just makes me hurt. I miss him everyday. Honestly I don't think I made the right choice moving with Pike to DC. We live in the same house but barely talk. As the elevator opens to my old floor I look for Jane...nothing, actually I see no signs of Jane anywhere. "Hey!" Wiley says standing up. "What are you doing here?" He asked

"just picking up some files...Where's Jane's couch?"

"Oh. It's in storage." He says.

"what why?"

"You didn't hear?" He asks surprised.

"Hear what?" I ask my heart now racing.

"He disappeared after you left. He got cold and distant, he started going out in the field, no vest no nothing. It was almost like he wanted to get shot. Then there were times that he wouldn't come to work for days, and then finally he just stopped coming. There was no sign of him for a year. Then he popped back up in Michigan. Then disappeared for another few months. He still works for the FBI. But I don't know where." Did my leaving have that much effect on him? Well of course it did idiot! His wife and child were killed and you were then one who helped put him back together and then you shattered his heart. I was mad at him and wasn't thinking when I left. "He wanted me to give this to you." Wiley says hanging me an envelope "he just left it on my desk with a note saying to give it to you when I see you."

"Thanks," I say, taking the envelope and the files. I walk back to my car. I sit down and open the envelope hands shaking. 

     Dear Lisbon.     

If you're reading this then you came back.

For what I don't know. But you now know I'm gone, I don't blame you for your Choice but it did hurt.  I know you, and I know that you're going to try and find me.  Please don't.  I don't know if I could handle seeing you, much less if I want to. Harsh words I know but the truth, which is something you always wanted from me. To be honest you broke me to the point where I don't know if I can be fixed again.  So I'm leaving because everything here is just too painful.  Don't think about me, I'll be fine, just like I'm sure you are. 

Be happy my angry little princess. 

-You know who

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I'm thinking of turning this into an story instead of just a one shot would any of you like to see that?
-Nat