Trust | Lee Mark

Chapter 21

<November 2022>

"3. 2. 1. Cut." the director said, signalling the end of the shoot for today.

Me and the other Secret Garden members bowed, "Thankyou for your hard work." we thanked the staff.

I walked over to the chair where the make up artist is waiting for me. "Good job, Eunhye. Let's remove your makeup."

"Thankyou for your hard work as well, unnie." I smiled at her, closing my eyes as she started to remove my makeup.

I fidgeted on my dress, feeling a bit anxious, I've been feeling anxious the whole day though.

Today is the first anniversary of when Mark and I confessed to each other. I can't believe it has been a year.

I couldn't get the date out of my head, so I couldn't fight off my urge to buy something for Mark online a few days ago.

It's not like I'll be able to see him today though...

The last time I saw him was 5 months ago when I was still hospitalized. I've still been transferring the money I owe Mark to his back account every month though, courtesy of Haechan who sent me Mark's bank account via text message which I immediately deleted as soon as I jolted it down my notes. 

"Why are you so nervous today, dear?" my make up artist asked. I just smiled politely at her, "I'm just feeling a bit under the weather. Nothing to worry about though." 

I just wish to see my lover on our supposedly first anniversary, is that too much to ask?

I sighed and caressed my phone that I have just took out from my bag. How in the hell would I be able to at least say happy anniversary to him..

But at the same time, it's not like he remembers it..

Opening my phone, I noticed that it's only 12 pm. I guess I could go take a walk or something while I clear my mind.

"Gaeun unnie, we have 2 days off for today and tomorrow right?" I asked my leader when we were about to enter our van.

Gaeun nodded, "Yeah, are you planning to go somewhere? You're free to do it if you want, but make sure to stay under the radar and ask permission first." she informed softly as usual.

"Actually I feel like clearing my mind right now. I don't know where I'm going but maybe I'll just walk around and maybe visit my parents? I'll be back by tomorrow night, can you please relay that to our manager?" I asked, hoping to get the fresh air I've been dying to receive these days.

"Sure, just make sure to wear your disguise properly. You have your necessities in your bag right now right? Does it mean that you're not going to go back to the dorms with us right now?" Gaeun asked, making sure that I have everything planned out already.

I chuckled at my leader, "Yes, unnie, don't worry about me. And yeah, I'm not going back to the dorms. I'll probably walk around and then call a taxi to drive me back home." I assured her.

Gaeun let out a gentle smile, "Okay then, take care Eunhye. Have a nice break."

I smiled in return, "Thankyou, have a nice break as well, unnie. Please tell the other members to have a nice break as well." I told her before walking away.

Taking a hat and mask from my bag, I quickly disguised myself before anyone could recognize me. Being a relatively new group, we don't really have sasaengs that follow us everywhere yet. Not that I'm hoping to get them though to be honest, especially since I've seen how NCT's sasaengs are like.

Thank god they don't know about me and Mark, I'm legit scared of what they can do.

I unlocked my phone and connected it to my earphones. There's a small part of me that wants to listen to other groups' song to cover it but I'm in the middle of the road right now and I don't want to go in the newspaper headlines because I decided to dance in the middle of the road.