𝐓𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐑𝐢𝐝𝐞 ~ 𝐍𝐢𝐚𝐦

𝐭𝐞𝐧

2 weeks later

It's Niall's birthday today

That was my only thought

Niall has been my only thought for 2 weeks

I've been listening to sad music, haven't been eating much, I barely talk anymore. I'd say I'm heartbroken

So back to normal me

It's funny because I thought being away from someone makes you like them less but every day I swear I like him even more

I'm close to saying I love him

I never felt like this when I was with Zayn if anything I was happy when we were away from each other

I took a quick glance at the bottle of alcohol on the side and decided to have a glass for Niall

Alcohol was the only thing I really spending my money on sometimes a small amount of food and some electricity. I kept all the lights off, I preferred the dark anyway.

For the first time since Niall left, I actually got drunk 

All the other times I was tipsy. Most of the time I was on my own but occasionally with Louis if he wasn't on a date with Harry

They weren't dating but I knew they would sooner or later

Today I was alone and drunk and I didn't like being drunk on my own. I did stupid things

Hwllo - LP

Hi? - NH

Happy bitrhday - LP

No no birthday - LP

Are you drunk? - NH

Noooooo - LP

Liam? Are you drunk? - NH 

Yeah :( - LP

I would ask you why you've finally messaged me after 2 weeks but you're drunk and incapable of that - NH

Ooh big word incabple - LP

I'm coming to check on you - NH

That sobered me up a little too quick

No you can't! - LP

I instantly ran to the door and locked it. I heard my phone ding so I made my way back to it

Well I'm coming anyway - NH

No please - LP

I sent the message and retreated into my door barricading the door so he couldn't come in. I knew I was overreacting but I didn't want him to see me...and I didn't want to see him

I sat on my bed in the dark for a while until the door was knocked on

"Liam?" Niall's voice spoke. Only then did I realise that this was the first time I had actually heard him speak and not shout in 2 whole weeks

"Liam please let me in," Niall said softly

If I pretended I wasn't here he wouldn't know I'm here

"Liam I'm not stupid I know you are in there," He said before continuing "You never leave the house drunk"

I kept quiet

"I have a key remember" Niall then began putting the key in the door but he missed a couple of times, he always had shaky hands

I didn't know what to do so I just laid in the bed pretending I was asleep

After a couple of tries, he finally got in

"Lima can we please talk?"

He's never used that name before?

He approached the door and couldn't because I barricaded it 

"Liam, can you move the dresser so I can come in?" He asked softly again

"No"

The moment I said that I covered my face in confusion and anger 

Why did I just speak!

"Fine, then we'll talk through the door" He insisted "Liam why are you drinking so much and why are the lights all off?" As soon as he said that a light flickered on outside my room

"No turn it off!" I shouted

"Why?" He questioned

"Just turn it off!" I shouted again. Niall did as I said and turned it off, everything was back to darkness, it was quiet for a few seconds and all I could hear was Niall's light breathing

"Are you okay?" 

No I miss you

"Yeah I'm fine" I lied

No you mean everything to me and not having you here is hurting me Niall

"Are you sure?" Niall asked again

No I'm not Niall I need you 

I didn't say anything. But I did get up and move the dresser in front of the door. Once I did that I opened the door slowly and met Niall like it was the first time again

We sort of just looked at each other saying the same thing

I've missed you so much