Her first time preview.

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Dear diary, 

Today it's Thursday and I'm sorry I didn't write, but it has been a busy week.

 I decided to erase Justin and focus on my relationship with Eliot and school after everything that happened last Sunday. I told Logan what happened that night when and like a true friend, he warned me about Justin and practically told me Justin wasn't the right guy for me, which I already figured out. I also decided to go to the end-of-summer party with Logan. Lucky for me I didn't run into Justin and I hoped it could stay that way. Sadly it didn't and I saw him at the coffee house while I was studying. I hoped he didn't saw me, but he did and looked me right in the eye like nothing happened. I couldn't control my thoughts anymore when I saw him even though I knew I shouldn't think of him that way. As quick as I could I got out of there trying to avoid another fight or him hurting me and me ending up crying like always. And when I thought I was alone and lost him, but there he was. It's like he's reading my mind or tracking me any move I make. I tried to ignore him and think of Eliot, but my attempt failed when he touched me and grabbed my arm. He always does that, like I'm his puppet or something. To my biggest fear, we were standing face to face. I could think of a hundred ways to hurt him as he did me. I wanted to slap him and scream at him, but I didn't cause that isn't me. He tried to talk to me and said something about us being friends, because of Trish. And I tried to be angry at him and hate him for what he did, but he took down my wall with his jokes and beautiful green eyes. We actually ended up hanging out. And I could tell he was trying to behave and not be mean to me. He showed me this amazing place where we hang out and he letting me in. He told me about his dad and a little bit about his childhood and I never thought he would. I was actually having fun. We did get into a little argument about the weather which was funny and in the end he was right. We couldn't get to campus because of the storm, but Justin's dad's house was close enough and there was no one home. We had the whole house to ourselves and I'm glad because I looked really bad with all the dirt on me. After the moment we had in the bathroom he just left. Although it felt amazing to know what I could do to him. After I showered I went back to his room, where he was lying on the bed. 

And well after I crawled in bed with him, things got hot and heavy.