Idk Man, i was just inspired

20.

Today I sat and looked around. 

What I saw didn't really astonish me.

I saw how alone I really was.

There was no one around me, I was truly alone.

There was no sound, a deafening silence.

But there was a small sound coming our from the black ear buds; a slow sad song played.

I finally saw what I truly feared.

I was more alone that ever and even if there were people around me I would still feel alone, there was no changing that.

No matter how hard I tried, I knew that it would still stay like this.

I knew that no matter how hard I tried I would still not be good enough.

I knew that I didn't have it in me, the strength that I need to fight against the dark pain in my chest.

I stood up and walked and walked some more.

People were around me walking in front and behind. Some even beside me but not one of them saw the pain that I carried with me everyday, staying with me like no one else did.

I still felt alone no matter how many people were in my surroundings.

There was noise,  but all I heard was the slow sad song playing from the black earbuds.

And day by day the pain stayed with me.

And day by day I was surrounded by people and noise but they were oblivious the pain that I carried with me every single day.