No Way

Chapter 1

"Camila, I can't keep doing this!" Lauren exclaimed. She was tired of fighting and restricting herself in every way. She didn't want to hide anymore, she couldn't.

"You think this is easy for me!? Do you seriously think I like this!? That I enjoy seeing you with him!? Seeing him touch you, and hold you?!" Camila yelled back. I hate it! I hate all of it!" She screamed. She too was tired, hell she was exhausted. But what choice did they have? They had signed a contract. They were bound to secrecy for at least two more years.

"How do you think I feel?! I've had to watch you with guy after guy! I've been the one who had to hear you gush about them in interview after interview, and see pictures and videos of you out on dates! I can't even look at you in public without getting fucking shit from management! And god forbid I sit next to you..." Lauren said with tears streaming down her face, her green orbs glistening. Camila hated to see her cry, and worse of all, she hated being the reason.

This wasn't a new fight... no, this was a constant occurrence, but never had Lauren been the one forced into a "flirtationship" as management so eloquently put it. Both girls knew the real reasons behind these "romantic links" and they weren't to drum up publicity. No, they were for one reason and one reason only, keep Camren from trending. They didn't need to be associated with that stigma. What would the fans think? What would it do not only to Camila and Lauren's reputation but the rest of the girls as well?

"How do you think all of that makes me feel Camila?! I hate when he touches me! I hate having to laugh at his jokes or pretend like I'm even remotely interested in what he has to say. I told you from the beginning I didn't want to do this..." Lauren cried.

"He's not you... no one is." She released with a sigh. "I can feel myself slipping away Camz. I'm angry all the time, I can't even look in the mirror without feeling like I'm betraying myself, betraying you..." Lauren had finally calmed down, but you could see the exhaustion in her features, her hair was wild from messing with it in her anger and frustration, her cheeks flushed from yelling with tear stains to match.

Camila's appearance was similar to Lauren's. She too had been crying and filled with a whirlwind of emotions; from anger and jealousy, to desperation and fear, but fear was the most prominent of all. Fear of losing Lauren, of disappointing her fans and her family, of losing everything her and the girls had worked so hard for, but most of all she was terrified of herself. She wasn't as strong as Lauren. She couldn't handle the stares and the comments or the uncomfortable glances.

She couldn't disappoint Lauren, not again, but she knew where this conversation was going and she couldn't bear to see the hope escape from those gorgeous green eyes she had come to love so much. So instead she simply pulled Lauren closer and held her as if her life depended on it, because in that moment, it did. Camila couldn't bear the thought of losing Lauren.

Camila hated sneaking around and pretending to be in these relationships just as much, if not more than Lauren. She had always been the one pimped out to these assholes. She was the one who had to put on a brave face and a cute bow and act as if she was a love struck puppy. She was the one holding hands and making up lies in interviews. She was the one constantly living a double life. But what could she do? Go against management and just come out like Lauren so often suggested? It wasn't that easy, not for Camila. She loved Lauren and she would do anything for her but this, this was just too much. Camila didn't know if she could honor the one true request Lauren had given her. She couldn't, not yet or maybe not ever.

So in that moment she hoped and prayed that something... anything would turn in their favor.