No Way

Chapter 7

Camila and Lauren were on the way back to the hotel, and Lauren was floating on top of the world. Her and Camila had shared one the most amazing kisses and now she was going to take her out on an actual date. Lauren couldn't imagine being happier in that moment.

Camila knew she had fucked up. She had to figure out a way to make it up to Lauren, but the other girl was avoiding her all day. She wouldn't reply to her texts or pick up any of her calls. Yea, Camila was screwed.

So when Dinah found her and let her know about Shawn, she knew she had to make things right with Lauren. She couldn't keep hurting her girl. She had to be brave.

Camila decided to face her problems head on. She was going to talk with management.

"I'm in love with Lauren. There I said it, and I know that this is probably a lot to take in and that we've denied it before but I love her and I can't keep hurting her." Camila let out. She had done it. She had come out; to management at least but this was the first time she had admitted her feelings to anyone other than Lauren. Not even the girls knew Camila was gay. Sure they had their suspicions but they didn't want to assume and make Camila uncomfortable.

Camila had imagined coming out countless times, and every time she pictured it things went horrible. There was screaming and crying and in every scenario Camila was left alone and abandoned.

"Um okay? Where is this coming from?" Larry, the girls manager responded. "Are you telling me you want to come out or are you just telling me to tell me?"

"I mean... I don't know I just... can't keep going out on these dates with all of these guys while I'm literally in love with someone else. Dinah told me you wanted to set me up with Shawn tonight after the concert and I just can't do it anymore." Camila could feel the anxiety eating away at her. She had no idea how this was going to work out. She didn't even plan to come out to Larry. She was just planning on making some excuse as to why she couldn't go out with Shawn.

"Camila..." Larry sighed.

Oh no, this wasn't good.

"...are you in a relationship with Lauren?"

"I...umm... I... wha-what do you mean?" Camila stuttered. This was not going to end well.

"You know this relationship will never last right? You can't possibly think the fans would even remotely accept this? I'm sorry, you can't come out, let alone be in a relationship with your bandmate."

This was exactly what Camila had feared.

"We're not in a relationship, I don't even know if Lauren has feelings for me I just... I don't know I just had to tell you." Camila was crushed, this was not what she had hoped would happen.

"Look Camila, I get it... Lauren is a gorgeous girl. She's your best friend and you guys spend a lot of time together. It's normal to get confused or misinterpret feelings." Was this really happening? Was Larry really trying to convince Camila she was "confused"? Camila was beyond livid at this point.

"How about this? You and Shawn go out on a nice romantic date. I'm sure once you really spend some time with him you'll forget all about Lauren."

Forget about Lauren? Did he really just suggest she could "forget about Lauren?" Camila couldn't believe what he was suggesting. 

"I jus— I just need a minute— I'm sorry" Camila said as she ran out of the room. It was all too much. She hadn't even planned on coming out at all. She was just going to tell him she didn't want to go out with Shawn and next thing she knows she's blurting out that she's in love with Lauren. Who the hell does that?! Was she insane? Camila had fucked up big time; again.

As she ran through the hallway looking for somewhere to go she received a text from Larry.

-"Take some time and get yourself situated. I know there's a lot going on and all I want is for you girls to be as successful as possible. No more dates for a bit okay kiddo."

"Huh, I guess that was as bad and as I thought." Camila thought to herself. At least now she had a little bit of time to herself now, and that meant time for her and Lauren. She had to find her, she had to finish making things right.

So that's what led Camila to pull Lauren into the room after the concert. Camila's heart broke seeing Lauren fall apart on stage. She knew she was the reason for it and that alone made her want to risk it all and grab Lauren right then and there. If she had the guts, she would have grab her gorgeous girl by the hips, pulled her close and tenderly kissed those perfect lips she loves to call hers.

Camila knew she needed to make things right with Lauren. She couldn't hurt her anymore. She wouldn't.