Wrong Time Right Girl

9: Remember Me

Clair-

Me and Billie are sitting in her bed, watching a movie. And not a scary one. She knows that now. We are watching a Disney movie. I love Disney. Have you ever noticed a lot of the fathers die..like in Lion King or The Good Dinosaur..there are others but those are the ones I remember. 

"How do I get you to look at me?" 

Her voice goes over the movie. I ponder on the answer to her overly complicated question. 

"I don't know..i-" I sigh

She turns her body to me, listening to what I have to say. To be honest, I don't have an answer, because I don't know what it would take for me to show her.

"Do you not trust me?" 

"No, I do." 

"Then what is it..I remember what you told me before. Are you scared I could hurt you?" 

I laugh and throw my head down. 

"I'm scared I'll fall in love with you." I answer the best I can.

She doesn't reply. My chest pounds, oh god. I messed up, now she won't talk to me or anything. I scared her away. That's what I was afraid of. And she knows that now. 

I stutter, not knowing what to do. Billie starts to move, to me. I cautiously watch her, for what she is about to do. 

I flinch a little when her hand touched my skin, my cheek. She moves her body over me, sitting on my lap. Her fingers go over my skin, and its hot. She moves my hair from over my eyes, and behind my ears. My view consists of her neck, not daring to look up. Too scared to. 

But when her hand goes to my chin and makes me look up, my world stopped. Only her was right now. I started from her chin, to her lips, her nose, and slowly to her eyes. 

My breath hitched, her eyes. Oh man, her eyes. 

I stared, and so did she. Neither of us tried to speak, knowing it could ruin the moment. 

Her eyes are blue, like the ocean. But a frozen one, that cracks every few minutes. You could see every emotion she was feeling, her eyes never lied. She was stressed, tired, but okay with life. You could see there was something ruining her, eating her away. Stopping her from being the happiest she could be. 

"Then fall in love." She mumbled and pulled me closer.

Her lips...were on mine. I didn't move, just stayed still like hers. We were both shocked. 

But then she moved, and I did to. My hand cupped her face, pulling as close as possible. Her body was pressed against mine. 

When she pulled away, she didn't say anything. "Oh my god." my voice cracked as I pushed her off and ran to Maggie. 

She was in her room, with patty. Talking about their lives. But I could care less right now. I closed the door and locked it. 

"Yo-You did this on purpose Maggie!" I cried. 

" Y-You remember?" 

"Yes! How could you do this?! You went to the asylum to find me, you weren't doing an experiment, were you?! Maggie, I left for a reason!" I yelled. 

"Which is why?!" She yelled back.

"You broke Billie's heart when you left without telling her. Why would you do such a thing?!" Maggie added.

I felt tears falling, ones I tried so hard to keep in. I laughed painfully and groaned. 

"Because! He was coming for me! looking for me! I couldn't put Billie in that danger, you in that danger. Leaving was the only option to keep you guys safe!" I cried out.

"Then why didn't you come back, you're here now...so why didn't you come back after it was safe? He is in jail now, he has been in jail for almost 2 years now." Maggie held a pained expression. 

"Because, I was pregnant! And I didn't know that until I left. I had the baby, we were happy. I worked my ass of to keep her safe, healthy. To keep her away from him. But he found her anyway, she was 1 and a half. He came, took me and her, and killed her. In front of me." 

At this point I was sobbing, on the floor. And Maggie was speechless. 

"My world ended that day, I wanted to die. To kill everyone of those men in that gang. But instead I ran. Then someone called the police on me, and the asylum took me. Called me crazy because I turned into a depressed bitch." I looked down. 

"Her name was Ivy, and she was mine. All mine, my baby." I cried and opened the door. Feeling the walls closing in I started to panic. 

My breathing was heavy, barely breathing at all. Billie was pacing around the living room when I entered. 

"Are you okay? You left..a-and, did I do something? I'm sorry that I kissed you" She stopped talking when she noticed my state.

"You didn't hear any of that?" I calmed a little, but there was a clear frown on my face. 

Billie went silent. She nodded. 

"I heard a little." She looked down. 

"And by a little you mean all of it." I laughed with tears staining my face. 

"Yea.." 

I saw tears on her face, pain in her eyes. 

And when she looked up at me, I knew I couldn't hide anymore. 

So in this story Billie=G!p. And she can get a girl pregnant. And to make everything clear Billie is the other child's parent. Clair and Billie used to be in love at the age 16, or something, and then Clair left because there were bad people chasing her, so she left to keep Billie and her family safe. But she found out she was having billie's baby, and got scared. so she had the baby on her own and then a year later the bad people found clair and killed the baby. hope it wasn't too confusing :)