Kianna was a normal 19 year old. SCRATCH THAT. No she wasn't. She was a BOSS ASS 19 year old, she had gotten everything she had on her own AND had a successful business. Now who you know?? She thought her life was perfect the way it was until one ni...
I woke up with tears in my eyes & immediately broke down. I know it was a dream but it felt so real. Pinky is really all I had left. Of course I had Lauren & Jayda but me & Pinky been through the worst together.
We been broke together, depressed together. He was there for me when I lost my dad & I was there for him when he lost his sister. Pinky my dawg for real. He's the only one aside from Roddy who knows why I had to leave my mom.
Idk what I would do without him. I felt someone holding me & tensed up my body. Realizing that it was Roddy I loosened up my body & cried myself back to sleep into his shirt.
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I woke up in the middle of the night to Kianna crying, I tried to ask her what's wrong but she just held onto me until she cried herself back to sleep & I've been up watching her ever since.
I don't know what type of dream- or nightmare she had but that shit fucked her up. She hasn't moved, ate, or said one thing since she got up which isn't normal for her. It was 11:30 & by this time she was normally trying to do something but instead she was laying in the bed staring at the wall.
"Mama, come here. Sit up." I said picking her body up. She looked at me & her eyes that were once full of happiness & love, only showed me pain. "Talk to me Kianna, please. What happened?" I asked her getting in between her legs.
"I..." she started & then stopped. "Take your time so you can make sure that you tell me everything." I told her grabbing her hand. This my lil baby, I'll be damned if she hurting & I don't know why. I just wish I could take it all from her.
"I had a nightmare last night. I was sleeping after the club & woke up cause Lauren called my phone...I asked her what happened & she started screaming about Pinky getting shot. So me & you both took a flight back to new york & by the time I got to the hospital he was already gone. Pinky is really all I have left. We been through so much together...I don't know what I would do if he was really gone." She said trying to fight the tears but a few still streamed down her face.
"Mama, it's ok. He's still here, just talk to him about the dream. It'll make you feel better. But do whatever you can to get him to have a safer life. I know how it feels to lose somebody close to you & I'll be damned if I let you go through that. A few years back my cousin took a charge for me & got 7 years in prison. I know it wasn't death or anything but I took it hard. Aside from him the only person I had was my granny. And that's when I started rapping. He was always telling me I should do it but I never took him seriously. I thought the streets was good enough for me but he wanted me to get out the street life. And then he ended up in jail. It should've been me behind those bars but he ended up there instead."
"You're right. I should talk to him as soon as I get back. But you shouldn't blame yourself for that baby. It's not your fault. It's life, shit happens & it's fucked up but we just gotta deal with it." She told me, grabbing my face & kissing me.
