Me and my girlfriend was currently chillin' in my condo, eating Mcdo and watching Netflix.
She's Viana, we've been in a relationship for almost 6 years. At sa tingin ko siya na ang babaeng mamahalin ko habang buhay.
We met in the internet, so basically our relationship started in an 'internet love'. Sobrang saya ko nga dahil kahit na sa internet lang kami nagsimula at nagkakilala, our relationship still worked and still working.
"Love, nakikita mo ba 'yung sarili mo na magkakaanak sa future?" I looked at her when she said that out of the blue. Inubos ko muna ang nginunguya kong french fries bago magsalita.
"Hmm it depends.." I paused.
My mouth was about to open and say "kung gusto mo, sige lang ako." when she spoke.
"Gusto 'ko dalawang anak." She said with excitement in her eyes. I smiled. Hinawakan ko ang mukha niya at sasabihin sanang 'Gusto mo pala e edi sige, magaampon tayo.' pero sa pangalawang pagkakataon naunahan niya na naman akong magsalita.
"Basta gusto 'ko kamukha 'ko yung mga anak 'ko kase syempre ako 'yung mahihirapan umiri e." She stated like a child and laughed.
I was caught off guard but I still manage to give her a smile.
A weak smile.
Kita ko ang kagustuhan sa mga mata niya, she really want to have a child, hindi niya lang basta gusto lang magkaanak, she want to bear a child..
"Love, ihi lang ako." Paalam niya saka dali daling tumakbo sa CR.
I bit my lower lip as I felt my heart clenched. Gusto 'kong umiyak pero hindi ko magawa. I badly want to ask her if she see me, if she see us together in the future, marrying and making a family. Kase para sa'kin malinaw na malinaw na siya na ang gusto 'kong makasama habang buhay.
Ang sakit..
Ang sakit sakit kase parang hindi ako 'yung nakikita niyang kasama niya sa hinaharap. 'Yun yung nararamdaman 'ko.
I'm not capable of giving her a child like what she wants and she obviously knew it. I cannot gave her the future that she want and it's all because---
---we shared the same gender.
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This story is inspired and based on a true story. 'Yung ibang part is obviously, gawa gawa ko lang.
Sauce: one of saloobin files' entry.
cttro of the picture.
