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My boy is so beautiful.
Right now I am sitting in one of my patio chairs sun bathing while Harry is floating on his back in the pool. His skin has turned a light brown from the amount of sun we have been out in lately. He looks gorgeous.
A couple days ago Harry found my small scrapbook. It didn't have much photos in it but just enough for me to travel down memory lane. I liked having some stories to tell him about my childhood rather then him always having to tell me stuff about his. It made me feel normal.
Ever since that day I had started my pain meds. They have really been working but Harry was worried that I would grow a dependency on them and then end of getting kidney failure or all the other symptoms he was talking about, apparently its such a strong medicine it can cancel out everything else in your system. So we came to the compromise that I'll only take them when the pain gets too bad that a simple Advil can't fix.
"Babe do we have any ice cream?" Harry swims over to the side of the pool I was laying near. "Uhm there might a pint in the freezer." As the words come out of my he is hopping out of the pool like a dog getting water everywhere. I laugh a bit at his actions as I rest my head back down, relaxing in the sun.
Cramps invade my stomach, they have been for a couple weeks but it's been worse lately. I think I started my period. When I woke I had a small blood stain on my underwear but not enough to bleed though on to the bed. My breast are swollen and hurt like crazy. I got sick this morning too overall I am hurting but the sun makes me feel like I'm wrapped in a warm blanket.
After a few minutes of since Harry comes back out with a cone of ice cream in one hand and his phone to his ear in the other. "Yeah sure we'll be there Soph." He sits down at the end of my chair and flashes me a quick smile before continuing to talk. "Okay okay I got it Soph, I'll see ya later." With that he hangs up before moving himself in-between my legs so he could lay his back on my lower stomach.
"So, do ya wanna go out tonight?" Harry ask me with a cheeky grin. I wrap my arms over his shoulders and draw circles with my fingers.
"Mmm with who?"
"Sophia, ya know from the shop, and I think she is bringing a date as well, if you still aren't feeling well we don't have to go baby." He pushes his head back so he could try to see me.
"Yeah that sounds fun." My enthusiasm comes off as natural but it's fake. I am not one to hate on other women but I sincerely hate this woman. But to be fair I think she hates me as well so it's good.
"Oh great, we are leaving at 8 to go to the bar, this is gonna be so much fun, my love!" He is so cute when he gets excited. His dimples are popping out and little crinkles from by his eyes.
Even though I am not thrilled about going, Harry is and that's all that matters.
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It's 8. We are dressed and ready to go. I don't want to go.
