exotic

chapter two

Zayn finished my makeup and while he was doing it we all just talked to each other while sky was in front of me and Louis sitting in a chair beside me. "Alright you're ready to change and get ready for the photos! You're gonna look great." Zayns says to me, turning behind me to touch up my hair. "What do you guys think?" I say standing up and looking at both Louis and sky. Their eyes widen and sky has a huge smile on her face. "oh my god! You look amazing!" She says slightly touching my hair. "Thanks it's really all zayn so he should get the credit." I turn to the dress and pick it up. "I'll be right back." While in the dressing room I take my clothes off and I put on the dress. When I look into the mirror I'm completely stunned. I've never seen myself as beautiful but right now If I didn't know it was me I'd fall for that girl that I'm staring at right now. I felt my eyes starting to get heavy. I didn't want to cry so I stopped staring into the mirror and I slipped on the stilettos that zayn had told me matched well with the dress. And he was right. But I didn't want to look at myself anymore. I didn't deserve to be in this dress. I stepped out of the room and walked out of the dressing room. Before I went in, Zayn told me that he would take Louis and sky to the shooting area so when I was done I could just walk out there. I walked down the hallways and towards the door that held a sign saying occupied for shooting. I opened the door to a bright room that held all of the lights and cameras for the shoot. I was told the background for the photos were going to be like a navy blue. That's what I saw when I walked to the seat in front of the backdrop. I see Louis and sky watching me. I give them a small wave with a light smile. "Alright ms.kennen you can just sit here and we tell you what poses and where to look and everything else." I nod as the photographer tells me these things but I already knew this. They tell me to sit on the stool and cross my legs and put my chin in my hand. They snap a couple of photos and the whole room lights up with the flashes. The crew dimmed the room before we started to cause an effect with the lighting. After a whole lot of poses and a lot of flashing lights we were done. After I changed out of the dress I met sky and Louis standing at the car. I get here and I get into the driver's seat. "How do you like it so far sky?" Louis asks her as we drive down the highway. When I look at her blue eyes in the rear view mirror her eyes are full of light. "I love it! I think it would help with my self confidence and it would be really fun." She says. She keeps talking to Louis and I just add in little hums for it to seem like I'm listening but really my mind was clouded with so many thoughts. Tonight is going to be one of those nights. It was already four in the afternoon. I hope what I do helps Sky rather than what it did to me. My life was so simple before but now it's not as easy. And I hate that. But for sky I will not let that happen. She doesn't deserve it. But if that's what she wants then I wont stop her but It just kills me to know that this could hurt her. The thing that makes me hurt the most was this stupid job could take away her pureness. I never had pureness so it was never a problem for me. I don't care what happens to me. But her. She's different. She deserves everything she wants And even the things that she doesn't even know she wants. "Mannon?" Louis shakes my arm. I hum and I just shake off everything. I let out a small laugh. "Sorry I'm just tired from last night." I say and shake my head to look at him but then turn back to the road and I noticed the exit was close. As soon as I turn off the exit I see the apartment ahead. I tell them that I need to run some Aarons so they let me just drop them off and as soon as they leave I drive off in the opposite direction I speed down the roads. As soon as the curves turn to just a straight line of paved ground I press the gas harder and it boots the speed from 60 to 80 in two seconds. I keep driving down the road and slip up the speed by fives every now and then. I never get above 100 but right now I am at 115. It felt amazing. The azleration. The adrenaline rush pushing all my thoughts out of me and letting me forget about them all. Right there I felt like I wasn't even living; it didn't feel real in the moment. The road starts leading to the dead end. I was now slowing down to a decent 60. Then to a 40 to just make the u turn. When I'm faced with the long paved road that went on for miles I started boosting the spread again. This time I went to 120. It felt like I was flying. I never wanted this feeling to end. Everything wrong in my life at this moment wasn't anywhere near me. The rush of excitement was so overwhelming that my breathing was altering but I didn't care. This moment was the moment I would never leave. When the road starts coming to an end and it feels like I was out there for ages I look at the dashboard to see the time. 5:27 pm. I shoot my eyes back up to the road and my speed starts downing to a 50 I keep that steady speed when I get onto the interstate. I reach the stoplight. The traffic was so bad today. People are mostly only out during lunch but right now everyone was probably with their friends and family. I grab the water bottle I had from the back seat and I take multiple gulps then throw it in the seat beside me. I was slightly sweating. I was so used to doing that it was like a routine for me. Whenever I have a lot of stress I take myself down to that road and just let go of everything in the moment. It's really amazing. The light turns green and I start driving again.