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Chapter six

I stop dead in my tracks. There is no way this is happening. I'm not going to believe it. My brain is telling me to keep moving but there's a part of me wanting to turn around. fuck that part of me. I start walking to the double doors and make my way inside. swallowing your anxiety is hard but I've always been able to.

as soon as I'm through the door all of the memories come rushing back. when I start walking toward the meeting room I hear the door close behind me. why is he here? does he know something? I hate nosy people. he better just have to pee really bad. I take my phone from my back pocket and check the time. fuck.  I move faster to the meeting room. as soon as I hear his voice my heart sinks. at this point, I'm holding my breath. I turn the doorknob and walk-in. I feel so much regret wash over me as his eyes turn to mine.

"nice of you to join us." he says amused. the door opens again beside me. "Mannon step out of the way for this young man." I almost choke on-air as I see Liam in the same leather jacket like the rest of us. what the hell is happening right now? My dad clears his throat and turns his attention back to me. My heart is about to pound out of my chest. I'm so scared. "Mannon care to explain why you were late?" He asks sternly. His dull tone covering his disappointment.

My voice is barely able to be heard "uh- um my car broke d-down and I had to catch a r-ride." I mentally kick myself for sounding like a stutter box. "I know I taught you to speak clearly and do not mumble. And I definitely didn't teach you to be late and makeup excuses." My heart sinks to the floor. He's never spoken to me like that in front of people. "D-dad-" I start but I'm cut off by him saying "Mr. Kennan" at this point I wish the ground would just open up and swallow me. I look at everyone in the room. Each person has their eyes on us watching us like a reality tv show. My eyes flick to Liam's. He looks confused.

Why the hell is he confused I should be the one confused. Why is he even here? "Leave and I'll talk to you after." His voice interrupts my thoughts. "B-but-" before I finished I'm getting cut off again "mannon now." He raises his voice enough to let me know he means it. I rush out of there. Once I'm in the hall I bolt outside. I sit on the curb.

That was the most embarrassing thing I've ever lived through. I hate him. I hate everything. Fuck this. now is when I wish my car wouldn't have broken down so I could just sit in there and act like I'm not even here at this point. my dad has and never will be what most people would want as a dad. the only reason he acts like I'm not even his daughter because of what happened to mom. it wasn't even my fault yet he blames it all on me. 

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I've been sitting in the rain for a good hour now. my hair is drenched and so are all of my clothes. Liam has already come out he's now in the car. when he walked out and saw me he gave me this weird smile. I wish I could have wiped it right off his face. God this is so embarrassing.

I take off the leather jacket I have on since it's now sticking to my skin of how wet it is. I'm now In my black tank top and black jeans. Wet jeans are so uncomfortable. Wait. Fuck. I just remembered I have my bag in liams car. There's a hoodie in there.

I get up from my spot on the curb and start to walk over to liams car. I watch as his eyes meet with mine when he looks up from his phone. I look away after a few seconds. I open the car door and he turns his attention to me. "Hi" he says "hi?" It comes out more like a question. This is so awkward. I look for my bag and realize that's it in the back. "Could you hand me my bag?" I ask him. I'm not being nervous around him anymore it's dumb. "Yeah sure." He responds Turning around and takes him arm to reach In the floor board.

He hands me the bag and I take it from him. He watches my every movement as I get the hoodie I was looking for and put it over my small body. It's a two x so it makes me look extremely small. It ends at my mid thigh. And the sleeves have two inches with nothing in them. My hands are completely covered.

I zip my bag and put it in the seat. I was about to turn around and go back to my spot but liams voice stops me "you know you can stay in here if you want? It's raining and your soaked." I meet his eyes "um sure?" Why do I sound so unsure right now. I mentally kick myself.  I move my bag to the floor and get up in the seat.

I don't know what came across me to say this but I did "can I show you something?" He looks at me with curious eyes "sure." I smile subtly "can I drive?" This catches him by surprise. I really hope he won't say no then it won't be no fun. "Um sure yeah just be careful." He hops out of the car and I mutter "yeah careful." I smile to myself. "What was that?" He asks from behind me. "Nothing." I hop in the front seat and start the engine.

I can't wait to show him this. I've never showed anyone this because I always think they would never hang out with me anymore. But at this moment I didn't care I just wanted to show him. Its really not far from here it's like a 10 minute drive. We've already been here for 6 minutes just driving to the area that Liam didn't even know. I'm surprised he didn't even ask me where it was. He just sat quietly the whole ride. I'm not really social anyways.

When my eyes see the long road ahead I get the most excited smile ever. I look over to Liam "okay don't freak out." He gives me a confused look but once I turn my attention back to the road my foot presses on the gas pedal rasing it to 95 miles. I give Liam a wide smile when he looks like I'm insane.

I'm already getting high off of adrenaline not paying any attention  to Liam anymore. I'm in my own world. No one can take this away from me. The one escape I have that. I raise the speed even more to the point it feels like the road isn't even there anymore. 

From beside me "mannon! You going 130!" Liams voice sounds shocked and fearful. I just let it pass over me. I don't even think about it. The road was about to come to an end but I didn't want to stop anytime soon so I slowed to 100 to make a sharp u turn and then right back to 130 I was speeding down the road facing the other direction. I let out a huge scream from adrenaline and excitement. My heart is hammering in my chest but I love it.

I get completely lost in the rush that we were soon going to go back on the main road but just in time I started to slow down and watch the numbers go down until I was at a steady 55. I look over at liam as I was panting and he looked so flushed.

I pull over to the side of the road. "Liam?" I ask. He meets my eyes and he looks like I've gone insane. Great. "Its bad isn't it? Look I'm sor-" I get cut off by him saying "that was amazing!" I look at him my eyes almost bulging out of my head. "Really?" Holy shit I didn't think he would think it was fun. "That was the most fun I've ever had. You were so good at that." I smile widely "thank you." We both laugh at amazement. That turned out better than I thought.