𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 • 𝚢.𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚍𝚘𝚛𝚒

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*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ*

gently you let your fingertips trace over the cold but light coloured stone.
it was a nice difference to the dark surroundings that made you feel a bit closer to him.
it was like he was once again that ray of sunshine that lit up your life all the time.

you felt the warm tears run down your checks once again. a quiet sigh left your lips as you sat right in front of his grave.
itadori yuji, your fingertips finished tracing out his name and you hid your face in your hands, trying to hold back the sobs.
this was so unbelievable unfair. you just couldn't seem to understand that he wasn't coming back. never again his cute laughter, never again the kisses he gave you randomly in between, never again the tight hugs that made you feel better right away. but especially the last one was something you needed so bad right now. you wanted to see him again just once more. but it wasn't possible.

he was gone forever. if you wanted it or not and there was nothing you could do about it no matter how much you wanted to.

you quietly sniffled, sitting up a bit straighter
your body was still sore from the fights and your heart was still aching but you didn't have time forever.
his funreal was over now.
you pressed your lips together, as you stared on the stone in front of you.
desparetly you tried to remember his smiling face to make ease the hurting feeling, as if someone was pulling your heart apart.

megumi promised to pick you up later, as he was visiting another grave.
the funreal happened about two days ago, and megumi had mumbled something about just wanting to check.
of course a lot of other people died. you knew that. and you also knew how heartless it must seem that you just didn't seem to care. because you were suffering so much from the death of your boyfriend.
you knew right now you wouldn't be able to handle any more pain.

you sniffled as you couldn't hold back the next sob, now crying again.
you missed him so much.
your hand grabbed the edge of the gravestone.
it was cold yet kind of comforting to hold onto it. and it reminded you of yuji and you.

• • • •

you quietly sighed as you walked out the shop you and your so called friends had just been in. you tried to not let the sadness get too much of you.
it wasn't the first time after all they just left you alone when going shopping. you were used to it and you should have known that something like that would definitely happen again.
they just liked the money your family had, and that was all of it.
they did not care about you as a person.

as you were staring on the floor you couldn't see where you were going, yet you were a bit startled when you ran into something.

"i'm so so-" you stopped miday as you took a closer look at the boy. pinkish-brown hair, a weird uniform you never saw and weird marks on either side of his face.
but what irritated you the most was the thing he was holding. a monster? was it a monster.
"it's alright." he waved up and wanted to walk away but froze in his movement when he saw you reaching out for the curse he had been chasing the last 10 minutes to show it to junpei.
maybe it was a plushi you wondered.

"what is that?" you finally asked and pointed right at it, now taking yuji's hopes you might have been seeing something different.
"uhhhm..." he thought about it for a while. he had no idea what to tell you. nobody told him what to do in a situation like this.
he bit his lower lip before he grabbed your hand. it was a bit cold, but for some reasons it was really calming you dow.
he suddenly started running, pulling you with him.
"we are we going?" you asked, while trying to keep up with his pace.
"you'll see." he replied.

• • • •

a sad smile appeared on your lips as you stared at the little flower bouquet you had layed down.
well you would never see him again.
no matter how bad you wanted to.

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ*