Pinagtagpo

Day 4

I’m happy that you give attention to the person who liked you well at least for her and not for the rest.

I was stupid to believe you could see me they I see you. I know at this point I appear to sound bitter and vain because maybe I am? Maybe I wanted to turn back time and just…just noticed you.
I wish I had the courage to talked to you the way she did, damn I knew I had the chance and I let it down, I never choose you to be my dance partner not even once because I was afraid that you’ll notice the 4 years’ worth of feelings I’ve kept in my eyes.
I got to admit, the only time in my life when I got to dance with you was a school dance number and among the other students who participated the hand shake circle you are one of the few who really hold peoples hand and I wasn’t really expecting that from you, but the first time we’ve hold hands and at this point I knew you don’t care but I was so over joyed.
What if I never wasted that time? What if I never turned my back? What if we continued could we be closer than we are now? But I doubt.

You see after that, shit went down the drain to quickly, and among the people who is so chill being shipped to me, you became very distant in a snap you turned down anything you see related to me. And damn you even laugh at the moment when I need a friend to help me. See I lost faith of you noticing me as your friend, yet alone being your special someone.

I don’t know what I liked about you.
And it annoys me.

It annoys me why can't I control my feelings like used too.

(To be continued...