What's Happening to Me?
Two part series ~ There is no corona keep that in mind.I was walking home with Wakatoshi after practice like we did everyday. I zipped up my jacket as a small breeze ran throughout my body. It was quiet as always, we both never really talked so this was normal for us.
I felt a grip on my arm which forced me to stop and turn to look at him.
"What's wrong?" I asked, adjusting my mask. Sakusa scared me into wearing one at his last party, asshole.
"I'm breaking up with you." He said bluntly. My breath got caught in my throat as I scanned his eyes. He wasn't lying.
"Okay. Can I know why?"
"You're a distraction and I need to focus on volleyball. Nationals are coming up and this needs my full attention. And I've lost feelings for you." He answered. I just stood there in shock, it took me a second to process. I'm not good at showing emotions but right now I felt like an open book. I hate this feeling, so I put on a front.
"Okay, then I'll see you around Ushijima." I said, my voice quiet. I walked away before he could say anything else. While I was walking, my chest felt tight, I had a nauseating feeling and something wet fell on my cheek. I looked up at the clear, blue sky, if it wasn't rain what is it.
I wiped my eyes, just for more water to come down. I started freaking out, what is this? I hurried home and burst through the front door. I locked it quickly and went to the kitchen to see my mom.
"Hi mama, how was sc-"
"Somethings wrong with me. I feel sick and there's stuff coming from my eyes. Am I dying?!" I said, panicking as I took my mask off of my face. She quickly walked over to me and wiped the water that was spilling from my eyes.
"Have you been feeling like this all day?"
"No, it just started after Ushijima broke up with me." I explained. She was quiet and just looked at me sadly.
"What?! What's wrong?!" I asked worried from the look in her eyes.
"Mama, you're crying. God, I haven't seen you cry in I don't know how long. Even as a baby, you rarely cried. Y/n, i'm so sorry." She said and pulled me into a hug.
"What's happening to me?" I asked as I rested my head in her neck. I hiccuped quietly as more tears fell. I don't like this, this whole time I've had this barrier up and it's crumbling. I don't want it to crumble, I don't want people to see me. They already think I'm a weirdo or freak, they'll just think i'm 5x that if I show my true self.
"I'm going to my room." I said before walking out of her grasp. I grabbed my mask and went upstairs. I took of my tie and button down as I started walking to the bathroom. I left a trail of clothes behind me as I turned the shower on. I sat on the tub floor contemplating everything.
I couldn't hold it anymore. I cried, as quietly as I could. I loved him, I really did. How long ago do he lose feelings for me? Did everyone know? I never wanna feel this again, I hate feelings.
Ushijima's an dick.
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