Lemon boy

Sour Goodbye's

TW: f slur, swearing
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I haven't talked or seen Niko in a few days. Ever since what happened, he hasn't been at school or answered his phone. I don't blame him though, I just left him with that awful shithead. I really hope he's okay?

I can't imagine what he's going through right now. I haven't gone to his house or even near it. God, I'm the worst person ever!

Noah has been helping me a lot with
everything, and I think I might be ready to come out my friends. He's told me no matter what they say he will stay by my side. So why I have no reason to be this nervous?

I'm hanging out with them today and I hope I can muster up enough courage to tell them.

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I start my journey over to Ryan's house, where we're all meeting. I glance over to Niko's house as I pass by but they're not outside, again.

I reach Ryan's house and let myself in like normal. Everyone is already there just talking, including Noah.

"Hey guys." I sit down on the couch next to Noah. My eyes scroll around the room and I notice Ryan's mom isn't here, good.

"Hey! It's been so long since we've all been together." Jake looks very happy to see me, i'm happy to see him as well. I hope the happiness keeps up.

"Yeah, where have you been man?" Ryan asks. I take a deep breath, this is a good time to tell them.

"That's actually what I wanted to talk to you guys about." they turn their attention to me so I continue, "I- I, well I um" Noah places his hand on my shoulder for comfort. I take a deep breath in and out and admit it, "Im gay" Ryan smiles and Jake starts laughing.

"What's so funny?!" Noah asks with anger rising in his throat.

Jake smiles, "Your joking, right? You can't actually be one of those people." Noah and I remain silent revealing the answer, causing Jake's smile to fade.

"Your serious?!" He raises his voice. He looks as if he's about to get up and hit me. Oh god he's really mad!

"You're a faggot!?" He shouts jumping up from his seat.

"Jake! Stop! You shouldn't say that word, especially now!" Ryan yells back also getting up from his seat.

"ITS TRUE! HE'S A FUCKING FAG!"

"Get out of my house!" Ryan demands, shocking everyone into silence.

The silence is then broken as quickly as it started by more yelling, "Gladly!"

Jake grabs his stuff and storms out of the house slamming the door behind him. I can no longer hold back and start bursting out into tears. I can't stop the tears no matter how hard I try, from rushing from my eyes, chipping away at me and creating ravines down my cheeks. My heart and breathing is rapid like I'm balancing on an unsteady board above the canyon my tears deteriorated.

I begin to panic as I try to balance and stay calm. The altitude takes away the air I need so desperately, and replaces it with a strong wind trying to knock me off the board.

Down in the canyon I see faces staring at me. All my friends and family wait below for me to fall to my fate. They're all laughing and pointing, even Niko is down there with a sadistic grin. They all want me to die.

I notice two people are missing from the crowd of judgers: Noah and Ryan. Just as I make that realization the board becomes more steady and warm arms wrap around me like new steady ropes for me to hold onto.