FuckBuddies (Hiatus)

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Jungkook's POV

after I went to the tree and spend my time out there crying while repeating to read Taehyung's letter I decided to go out and visit our old place.

The park where we always have dates and where we talk to each other.

The mall where we always buy our things, and the arcade inside of it where we always have a bet.

Our old house, where we spent all of our night together happily, where all the good and bad happened in that house.

And finally the school where it all started.

I started to stroll the school, all the rooms, canteen garden, where we always spend our time, and finally the janitor room on the rooftop where our first s*x happened.

That day is still fresh on my mind, I still know the feeling when we're doing it, how my heart is beating faster for happiness and at the same time scared too, scared cause of my grandpa, that if it will continue my life will be miserable and it did, but I don't regret anything in the end, specially because Taehyung made me happy.

I sat down on the floor and started crying as I remember taehyung again, my first love and my first in everything.

I understand his reason, I really but, it's really hurt and hard to accept, why loving him is this so bad, I was really ready to leave him for good, I was ready to vanish away from his life forever but then I read that damn letter and everything went crazy again, everything went in a mess especially my feelings inside.

I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't notice the door on the janitor room where I'm sitting opened

"Jungkook! I've been finding you everywhere" Taehyung said, and hug me, I tried to push him but he is so strong, I'm not that week also but I guess my emotion made me week

"What are you doing here, let go!" I said still trying to push him away from me

Taehyung let go and we stand up.

"Do you know how worried I was! I thought we were okay after the night we share" Taehyung start to say as he approach me

"Stop!" I said to taehyung, hands up and open signaling him to stop from walking towards me.

"Okay? Okay? HAHAHAHAHA after you broke my heart you think we will be okay in just instant? Ha! I shouldn't forgive you easily, no I shouldn't love you in the first place" I said almost shouting to Taehyung, it's so painful that I wanted to punch, kick and hurt taehyung so bad but I hold my self, violence isn't the key here.

Silence.... Silence surround us after I said that, I didn't mean to say that, maybe my emotion is getting to me, maybe I said that I regret everything because I'm hurting.

"You didn't love me right? I'm just your toy, and I'm just you stress ball" I said as another set of tears fall from my eyes.

"Are you Idiot?!" Taehyung shout at me that made me look up at him

"Do you think I will break up to Dr. Jung daughter just to be with you, if I don't love you jungkook I'm not in front of you right now, you think that the only I love with you is your body? Then I will not find you in the last 6 years that we are apart, but my heart long for you he is finding you Jungkook, you are the only one in here and if I don't love you then, why would I think how to propose to you if you don't mean so much to me! I love you Jungkook and everyday my love for you keep going strong, you are the reason of my happiness, my strength so please, don't leave!" Taehyung said crying in front of me that kinda break my hear, but I shake my head I had enough of his lies, I shake my head as tears fall from my eyes again, I remove the hair that sticking on my mouth and on my cheeks.