What Ever Helps You Sleep At Night- d.m

Chapter 9 - Halloween

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I woke up suddenly, feeling uncomfortable and warm in my sleeping bag. I rubbed my eyes and glanced around the hall - everyone seemed to be asleep. I turned my head to the left to see Corin fast asleep. I sat up slowly, my sleeping bag rustling. I sighed, my eyes barely making out the outlines of the hall as the only light was the moonlight - which shined through the large glass window.

I slipped out of my sleeping  so I didn't wake anyone. I furrowed my brows as I tipped-toed to the door and slipped out silently. I looked around for any sign of a teacher or prefect, but no one was around. it seemed weird, but I shrugged it off and made my way towards the astronomy tower. I slowly climbed the steps, the draft of cold wind hitting my face as I got higher. I creaked open the door, a breath leaving my lips as I saw him. his gaze fell to the balcony, watching the great lake and his hair messily covering his face. One of his legs lay straight, and one was bent. His elbow leaned against his knee as he twisted his wand between his fingers. 

I felt my mouth become dry, and I took a step back. After what happened today, I didn't want to face him - I couldn't. I felt like a coward, but what happened today and what I felt was weird. 

"I know it's you." His gaze fell onto me, I exhaled a breath and stepped past the thresh hold. he sat up straighter, and I walked over to him. I sat beside him, bringing my knees to my chest. 

"You're not supposed to be here." He looked out into the night sky. I released a scoff and rolled my head to look at him. 

"And you are?" I retorted, and he paused, gripping his wand tightly. He turned to look at me - I was very aware of how close his face was to mine, I needed my brain to shut off. 

"About how I acted earlier, it was a mistake, and I was drunk. I shouldn't have. I mean, I'm not even that attracted to you. it's you. I just needed someone since Pansy wouldn't talk to me. But apparently, she wasn't happy about the carriage thing. We did stuff and made up...so I guess she's not mad at me anymore..." His words came out so easily. He had no trouble saying any of that. The words hit me like a brick wall - I was being rejected. I was being rejected for something I didn't even establish. He touched me. And it meant nothing. not that I cared if it meant something.

"It's fine." I stood up quickly, dusting off my clothes. He thinks I'm unattractive. he stood up beside me and took my arm. I felt the unwelcome feeling of heat radiating off of his skin. 

"India, listen." I pulled away from him as quickly as I could. I continued to ignore how it felt when he touched me. This is the boy I hate. the boy who treats everyone around him horribly. I just had to remind myself. 

"Look, Draco. We aren't friends. You don't have to explain yourself to me because of an almost kiss. Do you think I want to be with you? Is that why you're trying to explain yourself? because, no offence, you're not my type." I crossed my arms over my chest. He sneered at me and raised a brow. I could tell my words sparked something inside him as his eyes lit up with anger. 

"I don't need you running your mouth about how I 'nearly' kissed you. No one likes a blood traitor. and even if you weren't a blood traitor, I would never wanna kiss your horrid face." His words hurt me more than I'd ever admit. He did find me unattractive. 

"Goodnight.". I muttered, my voice quiet. I looked up at him. His eyes seemed to be filled with hatred. I fucking hate him. I turned as fast as I could and walked down the Astronomy tower back to the Great Hall. My chest felt tight and my throat hurt as I tried to hold back my tears. I felt a lump form in my throat as I squeezed my eyes shut. 

I don't care. I don't. I don't. I don't. I don't. 

I repeated this in my head as I silently climbed back into my sleeping bag and let the hot tears run down my cheeks until I fell asleep.