Wolfstar Headcanons

Wolfstar argument - sorry! :(

Part 1/2

It had been roughly a week since they had spoken.

It had been roughly a week since they kissed.

It had been roughly a week since they held hands, or went on a date, or exchanged I love you's, it had been too long but both of them had to keep going.

Another late night evening, about a week ago, Sirius and Remus were curled together in one of the small poster beds talking about the stupidest things, the other two marauders were fast asleep but Pads and Moony were still up even though it was nearly 3:00 am.

Later on in the morning, was meant to be very exciting for the marauders, James, Peter and Sirius had been transforming into animagi's for the past week wanting to get it perfect for the werewolf so he wouldn't be so lonely during transformations.

All three had agreed it was time to tell Rem then and they were beyond ecstatic.

It had been on Sirius mind for nearly a month, he had never lied to his Moony and he was fed up with the secrecy, he wanted to scream to the world that he loved him so and he was now an unregistered animagas because he loved him that much.

It was as if Remus could tell something was bothering him as well, Sirius had been bombarded with are you okay's for the past month too, Remus could tell when he was hiding something and particularly now he was rather concerned about his lover who was squirming while staring up at the ceiling.

"Siri seriously what's wrong? Babe, I know when something's up, I know you, please talk to me, you've been like this for a month." Remus had pulled Sirius face over to his eyes as their noses touched gently.

"Nothing promise moons." He had risen up and shifted his knees to his chest hugging them tightly as he rested his head looking away from his lover.

"Oh don't give me that bullshit, look at me please," he had got up to pushing his gaze over to Sirius, "tell me what's up now, I'm done sitting around while you tell me shit!" Remus was half yelling now as they heard muffled voices from the other two boys, "common room now!"

He had grabbed Sirius's arm before he could resent any further and pulled him out of their bed and down to the common room. Pulling his arm across he had chucked Padfoot on a small couch and placed both of his arms on the armrests so his face was directly in front of Sirius's eyes. "Spill now."

"I er," Sirus's eyes rested on his lover's lips then back to his eyes, he spoke rather quickly saying, "James, Peter and I all turned into animagi's so you wouldn't be lonely during transformations, I think it's a great idea honestly I hope your not mad we lied," after finishing his fumbled speech Sirius stared into his Moony's eyes as they both sat in the uncomfortable silence.

Remus pushed both of his arms off the couch and paced to the fireplace with one hand over his face, "Rem, love, please say something, anything." Sirius had got up and placed a soft hand on Remus's shoulder but as soon as they touched he flinched him away as Sirius stared into his eyes clearly hurt.

"You-you...why didn't you tell me? You lied you fucking lied, you idiot!" Remus was yelling now, screaming at his lover.

"I...Rem-"

"No Sirius you could die you could fucking die, you hear me, if I attack you during a full moon, NO I won't let you, you're a fucking idiot Sirius!"

"I was trying to help you, babe, this will help!" Sirius had begun yelling too.

"Don't call me babe Sirius."

"What-why?" He spoke through a stutter.

"You can't do this, leave me alone." Remus slowly began walking back to their dorm room he needed distance from him but as soon as he reached the cool bannister he felt a strong arm reach his hand.

"Rem, what-what are you saying?" Sirius felt tears breaking free from his eyes for the first time in a while.

"I need space from everyone." He shoved Sirius's arm off his hand as a small shower of tears fell through his eyes but he had to keep going as he left Sirius at the bottom of the stairs.

It was almost as if he could feel the hurtful stares from him, taunting Remus and he kept walking away feeling a frightening chill run down his spine and Sirius broken once again.