Nothing makes sense

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(Y/n):
I was so mad! How could my dad do this to me?!
Before I could scream into my pillow out of pure anger, I heard my mom knocking on my room's door asking to come in.

Mom: Y/n! Can I come in?
Y/n: Yes mom!

(Y/n):
I don't usually like my mom invading my personal space, but this was different, at the end of the day, she wasn't the problem, my dad was.
My mom sat down beside me on my bed, I was crying out of frustration, there was nothing I could do, my dad had already booked the flight and talked to my college.

Mom: Hey, I know you're mad, I am too, your dad made a mistake and dragged us into his problems, but I still love him, and I understand if you don't.

(Y/n):
As soon as I heard that I was overwhelmed with confusion, my mom still loves my dad? After this? It made no sense, she was never the jealous kind, but your husband sleeping with your daughter's teacher? That's something else, something that should not be forgiven, my mom was too nice for my dad, she deserved better.
I stopped thinking about it and focused on giving her a response to what she said, but my mind was blank, I was shocked.

Mom: Sweetie? Are you okay?

(Y/n):
I didn't even realize I had been collecting my thoughts and leaving her with no answer, she was probably left with worry.

Y/n: Sorry, I can't really talk right now, it's a bit too much to process.

(Y/n):
My mom looked at me with a smile, as if she understood exactly what I was talking about.

Mom: It's okay, I understand, I'll give you some space while you sort through the situation.
Y/n: Thanks Mom, I'd aprecciate that.
Mom: I'm always here for you, remember that.

(Y/n):
It was as simple as that, she left my room, still smiling, but I knew that as soon as she closed my door, that smile would fade, I'm pretty sure it did.
It was dark outside, I could see the light coming from the cars passing by, my neighborhood is usually quiet, that's why I've always loved my home, but this time, the sound of the moving cars felt comforting, I figured it was because the little things that usually bother me felt so insignificant now, I wanted to stick to small problems again and forget about this event.
I put headphones on, music always calmed me down and made me feel, not better, simply feel.
I like all music genres, and sometimes I match them to my mood, but this time, I was sure that it wasn't a good idea to fit my mood with the songs, I still couldn't understand anything, what was I feeling anyway?
As I scrolled through my spotify playlists, liked songs and daily reccomendations, I pictured my dad, how he would take me to college or the times I found him walking around offices only to say he was talking about my performance and behavior when I talked to him about it. I'm an average student, my performance in class isn't bad but it isn't the best either, so I guess I never doubted the idea of my college telling him about the times I cussed or my missing assignments.
I shook my head to stop thinking about it and decided to shift my focus, I kept scrolling through music, until I reached the end, I couldn't select a song, it was such a simple task, but I still couldn't do it, until I started humming a song that felt familiar.

I shook my head to stop thinking about it and decided to shift my focus, I kept scrolling through music, until I reached the end, I couldn't select a song, it was such a simple task, but I still couldn't do it, until I started humming a song that ...

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An earworm! I couldn't figure it out! What song was this? I don't know! It was a pop song, it was happy and catchy, the lyrics talked about having a weakness for someone's love, a male artist sang it. That's all I knew.
I closed my eyes and tried to remember, it was Wes, Wesley Tucker. I felt some sort of happiness, I forgot about him for a while, it was nice to have that memory back.
I searched Weakness by Wesley Tucker on Spotify and played it, it made me remember all the good times with his music. I also saw he had released a new single called "Idk rn" so I clicked on it and ended up being mesmerized with the lyrics and musical notes.
I finally found the peace to go to sleep after streaming all his songs, I got up and closed my curtains, the stars were nice to look at, but people were still awake outside and the full moon was brighter than usual.
I rested my head against the pillow and noticed I was exhausted, it's funny how I didn't feel tired before, I guess I was enjoying Wes's music a lot and I was in shock with the family's news.
I felt a wave of relaxation, it was definetly temporary, but I took advantage of it and closed my eyes, falling asleep.

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