Linger - Wesley Tucker

I'm sorry

(Y/n):
I instantly started sobbing and screaming into my pillow, what is wrong with me? Am I going insane? I could feel my heart sinking and pressure in my chest, I couldn't lose him that quick, he was too special, he was my life. As time passed, I started crying even more, my body started shaking and I had an intense headache, I felt empty, I gasped for air, everything was just too much, I know it might make no sense, but I was guilty, and even if it might not seem like a big deal, I knew Carter, he never blocks anyone in his contacts. I was overwhelmed though, and I thought he understood, but he didn't, for the first time ever.

(Wes):
I was having a normal night and as I went up the stairs I heard y/n crying in her room, I heard muffled screams and sobs, I decided to leave her alone, but after 5 minutes, it continued. I finally decided to knock on her door, it was a little open and I could see how dark the room was through the gap.

(Y/n):
I don't like crying in front of people, I only show vulnerability with people I feel close to, but someone was knocking on my door and I didn't know who it was. I wiped my tears and put on a happy face, got close to the door and realized it was Wes.

Y/n: Hey, come in (I said in a hoarse voice)
Wes: Hey, u ok?
Y/n: Uuhh... yeah, uh, why? (I said while holding back tears)
Wes: I don't mean to seem weird but I heard you crying on my way to my room.
Y/n: Oh- sorry.
Wes: Hey, wanna talk?
Y/n: It's just- my- uh- friend, I mean best friend- he- he uh.

(Wes):
Y/n was stuttering and she didn't have the mental strength to talk, I decided to hug her and she put her arms on my back while tightening the hug.

Wes: Hey, you don't have to talk now, is it okay if I stay here?
Y/n: More than okay, thanks Wes.

(Y/n):
I started crying uncontrollably in his arms, but he comforted me so much and after a while, I started to calm down. The warmth of his body, his light breathing, his soothing voice and safe hug instantly blocked my mind from thinking bad thoughts.

Y/n: I'm starting to feel a bit better.
Wes: That's good news! Let's hope this goes away. Wanna lay down?
Y/n: Actually, yeah.

(Y/n):
After Wes proposed the idea, I stood up and went to lay down on my bed, helplessly hoping Carter would come back, until I felt a hand hug my waist and pull me in closer, it was Wes. He was so close to me I froze, but it felt really nice. I couldn't see him because he was hugging me from behind, but I could feel him getting comfortable while adjusting himself on the bed.

Wes: Am I making you uncomfortable?
Y/n: Not at all.
Wes: Okay.

(Wes):
She was upset, I really wanted to take her pain away but I didn't even know why she was feeling this way. Anyways, she felt really sad, I could tell, but I didn't notice I also needed that hug. It just changed things, it was so affectionate and it felt different. I didn't want to make the same mistake as last time so as soon as I started to feel sleepy, I left her room.

(Y/n):
I woke up in the middle of the night out of nowhere, then I became aware that Wes was gone, I tried to go back to sleep, but I needed someone there, I washed up for bed properly and put on pajamas, layed down and felt empty again, I thought of it a lot, but at the end, I couldn't help myself, I went to Wes' room and to my surprise, he was awake.

Y/n: Psstt... Wes! (I said while whispering)

(Y/n):
Wes was on his phone, so the only way I could see his face was from the blue light shining off his screen. He looked back at me and his facial expressions completely changed, he went from bored and tired to happy.

Wes: Hey there!
Y/n: SHHH!
Wes: (While whispering) Oops.. sorry, forgot it was 1 am. Come in, close the door so we don't have to whisper. What are you doing here?

(Y/n):
I closed the door and took a deep breath.

Y/n: If it's okay I'd like some more company, but I understand if you don't want to sleep beside me, it could seem weird.
Wes: Y/n, I'm totally cool with that, as long as we both understand we're friends.
Y/n: Okay then, move over, spare me a spot, would ya?
Wes: Of course! Here, lay beside me.