Chemistry is Cruel

~Nine~

To say the the night was a success is a complete understatement. I had the best time in my entire life. For once, I felt free and felt true, genuine happiness.

Henry and Regina showed me the present they got me. He was so shy about it because he picked him out himself but it warmed my heart because it was actually like he knew me somehow. I had no idea they want to have a nerf gun fight but a sniper is definitely up my alley! Of course, I know how to use one so when we did have fight, it was totally epic. Regina wasn't bad at all either, her aim was impeccable with her crossbow.

After the fight, I let she and Henry make their castle she promised while I cooked dinner. By that time Henry opened up way more and started to say full sentences. I just.....a part of me wishes he was still closed off because the more he's open up the more he has hope. I'm still not sure if I'm fit to be a mother. After 6 long years I don't think I can do it.

That's what Regina and I talked about when he fell asleep-that and the issues she has going on up in that brain of hers. There's alot to worry about but that concerns me the most actually. She tried to reassure me and say she's fine but the moment you start talking back to the voices in your head, the worse it gets. I've witnessed it before in the past. After someone I knew killed a certain amount of people, it sticks with them, give them nightmares, and they start to lose their minds. I know this because....I was a bounty hunter too. I wasn't only just a drug dealer and a con artist.

Regina seems to be going through the motions backwards. Mary is the clearly the reason behind it and the strong possessiveness that Regina has for me. It's all creating this toxic monster inside her and she probably thinks whatever looks like a threat has to go. I don't want that. I don't want her to do something she'll regret in the future. Any day now and she can snap and that will change everything.

I feel a slight nudge in my cheek as I rest peacefully. Thinking it's Regina, I just ignore it until the nudges turn into consistent tapping. My eye peeks open only to stare back at glassy green. He gives me a small wave and says,

"Can I eat?" I grin at his adorable pout and sit up, making sure the covers are still covering my naked body.

"Yeah bud. Let me just get dressed okay?" Henry frantically nods with glee and skips out of the room.

As I slip out of bed I stare at Regina peacefully sleeping. She's so perfect in so many ways and this is probably the most peace she gets.....there's only one thing that can change that and I know exactly what it is....

I guess it's decided then. I am about to make the biggest decision in my life. It maybe hard, it might be life changing, but you have to sacrifice things for the ones you love right? Even if it means losing apart of yourself along the way. I know Regina and I have only been together for a little over a month but I just can't help it for some reason. I can't help the urge of wanting to give her the entire world even if she doesn't necessarily leave me to given her status in StoryBrooke already.

"Umm," I think as I dig around the kitchen. What would Henry even like? I dont really have breakfast, I just have eggs and fruit. What the hell....

"Have you ever had an omelette before?" I ask him. His dace twists at the word and he repeats innocently,

"Ommmm-e-lette?"

"It's eggs and veggies," I chuckle. He shrugs and rocks on his feet as he thinks.

"Veggies and eggs don't sound good...."

"What about a bowl of fruit?" This is definitely getting us no where.

"Do you have nanas?"

"I'm fresh out of bananas kid." Henry takes that as his cue to look around the kitchen.