Don't Let It Break Your Heart {l.t} - SLOW UPDATES

CHAPTER 4

I woke up around 11:30 to a terrible headache. My memory was foggy until I looked outside and saw the bowl and the lighter. I smoked a lot last night. Then I remembered, I smoked with Louis last night, or shall I say, this morning. I decided to text him, and make sure he's alright. 

Stella: Hey its Stella! how are you feeling this fine morning? 

I sent the message not expecting anything in return for a couple hours. But to my surprise he texted back instantly.

Louis: My head kills like a bitch, how are you?

S: My head is pounding..... I'm guessing we smoked a lot???

L: a joint and a bowl, we were so high haha

L: Do you still want to do dinner and a movie with me tonight? I know asking you while we were high wasn't the best but that doesn't change the fact that I still want to see you

I waited a minute to respond to his last text. I remembered sitting on Louis' lap and the way he made me felt. I slightly remember him asking me. When we were together, I felt like I was on cloud 9. 

S: Of course! I was honestly nervous you would forget asking me. How should I dress?

L: Casual, whatever you're comfortable in (-:

S: (: ok! what time should I expect you?

L: is 6 good?

S: it's perfect (:

I decided that since I'm getting this burst of energy from only 5 hours of sleep, I should try and be a little productive. I got up and showered for the day and picked out a lazy outfit of biker shorts and hoodie knowing very well that I would just be cleaning all day today. After throwing my damp hair in a messy bun I walked outside to clean up the weed. I couldn't help but feel guilty from only a few hours ago. While I felt good around Louis in the moment, I wish the first time we spent together was sober. The last time I got that high, I was in New York, it was a warm summer night, and I had gotten my weed from a man that I had just had sex with. We smoked until 4 in the morning in his apartment very far away from where I was living. I hated my life back then. I couldn't afford my life, my family had stopped talking to me months ago after I had told them that I couldn't keep coming back home if they weren't going to help me pay for it. They blamed me for my life choices saying that I could've easily stayed in Florida. While growing up Florida was nice, I knew I needed to leave. I needed to be in a place where no one knew my name and I wanted a fresh new start. New York felt like the best option at the time. It was in the northern part of the country and no one from my area was living there. 

Suddenly I was pulled from my thoughts by the feeling of tears rolling down my cheeks. I never want Louis to know how I was able to have all of that weed or why I even had it in the first place. I quickly wiped them away, grabbing my weed and closing the bag and taking the bowl and putting it in the box, shoving it deep under my bed. 

Realizing the time was now 3 p.m. I decided that now would be a good time to start preparing myself for our little date. I pulled on a pink long sleeve top, slightly cropped, and solid black jeans along with a pair of brown sandals. I finished off my hair by running a straightener through it. I applied face power, gold/pink toned eyeshadow and a few sweeps of a mascara brush. I looked at the time and saw I had an hour left until Louis came over for our date. I was craving a coffee and there was a Starbucks within walking distance. As I was walking, I noticed the sky becoming increasingly cloudy and a cool wind beginning to pick up. I arrived in 10 minutes, ordering my usual drink and right as I was about to leave to walk back, it started to rain. Wonderful. Since it was light enough right now, I figured I would have enough time to walk back before it really started to come down. 

I was able to walk home under the cover of buildings most of the way. Just as I was about to open my door, I saw a bright flash and the lights went out. Great. I heard footsteps rush to the door and it was Louis peeking his head out the door, shirtless might I add. 

"What are you doing out here?" Louis questioned me

"I went out for a Starbucks before, which judging by this," I motioned to the dark building, "I don't think it'll happen tonight" I said with a disappointed tone at the end. I had been looking forward all afternoon to be going out with Louis. He seemed like a great guy and even if things didn't work out relationship wise, he'd be a great friend I'd always have. 

I watched as smirk grow across Louis' face. "What" I laughed wondering what he's thinking. 

"I have an idea"