I woke up to white walls and a sound of a beeping of a monitor machine my head hurt but not as much as my left leg and right arm . My eyes adjusted and saw Jameses head asleep near my left hand in his I shifted to try and get away from him he woke up as soon as my hand left his his face immediately lit up when he saw me awake and walked out I sat there awkwardly alone when James returned there was a doctor following him he was young in his early twenties he had piercing green eyes and light brown hair . I didn't want to look at either of them I wanted to go home and watch gossip girl on Netflix with a big bowl of ice cream .
"Electra "
I looked at the doctor
"You had a nasty fall and unfortunately broke your leg and arm you was lucky It wasn't your neck or spine "
I stopped from correcting him about the fall I pushed my self out the window I didn't fall
" I need to talk to you about your scars on you stomach ,arms and thighs "
James looked up at me with tears in his eyes I just looked away I have no need to talk to him
"Baby you said you stopped " James tried to grab my hand but I yanked it away I felt his eyes burning into the back of my head
"If you wouldn't mind letting me talk to my patient "
James looked at me then the doctor and back at me and got up and walked out of the room
"Electra I really need you to talk to me "
I looked at him with a blank expression and took the notebook out of his hand and his pen and wrote "just do the operations, put the casts on and let me go " he looked down at the writing and looked up at me and simply nodded and walked out . James didn't come back in after that I stayed there for another 2 days mum and jade came asked about everything in which I didn't reply I simply stared out the window with a blanc expression the only emotion I gave was at night when I cried a couple nurses came in but I just looked at them with teary eyes and they didn't say anything just asked about pain but I shook my head on the 3rd day I got to chose my cast colour which was electric blue on my arm and black on my leg big shock there not James came in to pick me up and take me home he looked a wreck his usual neat self now looked as if his clothes had been sleeped in his face looked exhausted he had stubble and his eyes that usually glow now where warn out and dull I slightly felt bad but collected myself with the image of him and Lindsey "hey Anna told me " his face was full of shame and disgust "if you had woken me up you would have seen Lindsey was fully clothed and I had trousers on the only reason she was there was because she was wasted and her parents asked me to let her stay " I felt a weight being lifted off of me but didn't let any emotion get to my face I sat in a wheelchair and waited for him to take me to his car but he waited for me I looked up at him and his face held so much hurt I thought i was going to cry he lowered his face and kissed me but I did nothing he stopped looked at me and kissed me again but still I gave no reaction he stopped rested his forehead on mine I shut my eyes "please kiss me " his voice broke half way through the sentence I opened my eyes to James with a tear running down his face I shut my eyes and pulled my head back and waited for him to push the wheel chair away but he didn't I opened my eyes to James standing above me "Electra I love you why won't you kiss me ?"
I sighed and pulled a envelope out with his name on it and held it out to him he hesitated but took it I held my head low and waited . He read the letter and when finished looked at me "why ? "
I couldn't answer I just couldn't James finally pushed the wheelchair out of the hospital picked me up bridal style and put me in the car . I ended up at his house mum said I could stay here as I can't get up the stairs and need the elevator James didn't bother with the wheelchair and carried me upstairs a couple of tears escaped my eyes but I stayed quite James carefully put me in his bed covered me in his blanket and feel asleep holding me
