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six.

a/n: final chapter :) this was a short but sweet ride! dont worry, im ofc gonna write more! got a george x reader on the way!

tw: hospitals, death

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when the plane lands, he has to contain himself.

he's scared, not wanting to jump up too early, but also desperate to get out of this cramped plane. so he's up as soon as possible.

the ride to the hospital is a blur. his mind racing more by the second.

they don't know how long (y/n) has left. he wants them to say forever. for them to be cured. for this all to be some sick prank. he wants it to be fake. fake fake fake.

his thoughts moving a mile a minute, he focuses on where he is.

he steps out of the cab, his hands shaking as he tosses too much money over the back of the seat. he doesn't care.

as he goes inside, he feels as if he is floating. as if he isn't touching the ground. as if he's just a ghost as he walks up to the front desk and asks to see (y/n). the nurse does not ask who he is. he thinks he looks like a ghost. maybe she was too scared to ask. or she pitied him. the latter seems more likely to clay.

he stops outside of the door. the number 224 is forever burned into his brain.

he knows he will never forget the too bright hallways and his racing thoughts. not the smell of antiseptics in the halls or the clean white flashes of coats as doctors walk by. he will never forget opening the door and the pure shock of (y/n) in the bed, looking almost the same, but different entirely.

he steps inside, each step seeming to take a billion years. 

"oh my..."

"i look bad, don't i?" they snort, but the sound is almost unfamiliar. he wants to ask if this is a paid actor, if this is fake. it can't be real. it can't be real, but it's fake. his mind won't accept this.

"yeah," he says honestly. he knows you don't want him to sugarcoat it. "you look so.."

"fragile. that's what the doctors keep saying." you roll your eyes and for a moment, he thinks they're normal. this is a prank. he has hope. "even if i've got god knows how long left, i don't want to be considered fragile for a single second of that time. i'm not fragile."

"why not?" it's a dumb question, but he has to know. is their own death not tearing them up? are they not scared?

"clay, silly, i've got what i wanted in life. so i'm not upset that i'm dying. upset that it's so soon, yes, but i got what i wanted."

"what was that?" he asks, taking their cold hands into his own. they're not even dead but their skin feels drained of its warmth.

"i got the love of my life. i got to meet my soulmate."

"who?" 

"clay, are you this stupid? or is it the grief?" he goes to speak, but they cut him off. "it's you. despite everything it's still you."

he swears he feels his heart shatter into a thousand pieces. he swears he can hear it shatter like fragile glass. but it's not. it's still beating in his chest. thump. thump. thump. he isn't shattering into a thousand pieces.

"clay." sapnap says softly. clay looks to him, unblinking. "sit down. you look as if you might fall over."

he nods and pulls up a chair.

he sits there with his best friend and the love of his life for what feels like an eternity.

as the clock tick tocks, he notices that (y/n) is slowly growing weaker. the life drains from them more with every laugh, every breath, every heartbeat.

for a while, sapnap leaves him and (y/n) alone. he hesitates.

"can i tell you something?"

"anything," they say. "i have nothing to lose. no time left to be petty or butthurt."

"i love you." they stare at him in shock. at how sudden it was. but they are not surprised.

"i'm surprised you waited so long."

"i never knew." he snorts. they frown.

"i'm sorry. it's my fault."

"even so, i get it." he shrugs. they nod, still frowning.

"i'm so tired," they sigh, leaning back. clay's heart sinks. it's so sudden, but so slow. so agonizing to watch. he can't do a thing.

he is helpless.

"clay?" they say.

"hm?" he hums, his voice on the verge of breaking.

"tell me a story."

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a/n: kinda rushed :( however!! i will write an epilogue! i may come back and rewrite the last two chapters too at some point!! :) george book on the way soon tho!